From: pilot@scientology.at (The Pilot)
Subject: SUPER SCIO - TO STACY ETC. ON LMT
Date: 22 Jun 2000 00:00:00 GMT
Newsgroups: alt.clearing.technology

POST70.txt 

SUPER SCIO ARCHIVE 70 - EARLY 2000 PILOT POSTS TO ARS/ACT


January to June 2000

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Contents:

Jan - subj : super scio - TO STACY ETC. ON LMT
Mar - subj : super scio - A PERSONAL NOTE
Apr - subj : super scio - OSA - DIRTY TRICKS AND FOOTBULLETS
Jun - subj : super scio - ANNIVERSARY POST


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TO STACY ETC. ON LMT

(originally posted mid January 2000)


I was just advised that Stacy posted the following in a message
to Safe.

> In fact, I would like to invite you to be on the Advisory Board of the
> Lisa McPherson Trust. I am sure I speak for everyone at the Trust when
> I tell you that it would be an honor if you would join us in our
> endeavor. You can join as "Safe" if you would be more comfortable that
> way. And if you are in touch with the Pilot, please relay the same
> invitation to him. 


Note that I keep up with ARS by checking in periodically, pulling
thousands of message headers, and sampling whatever looks like
it is of interest.  And I have been completely offline since last
week.  I only just picked up all my email (I'm writing this on Monday, 
Jan 17, 2000), and found a bunch of messages calling my attention
to what was happening on ARS.

I think that this is important enough that I should answer
immediately before I even take time to find out more of the
details.

When I see somebody shifting over towards a better course,
I am not inclined to nitpick.  For this reason, I offered no
criticism of the charter and various statements being made
by LMT because they are moving in the right direction.

However, if I were to get my name associated with LMT, then
I do need to nitpick and to make my position very clear in
advance.  Furthermore, I believe that the dialogue about this
has to be out in the open rather than private.  There has
already been so much skullduggery in Scientology that I see
no other ethical course but to play with all my cards open
and on the table.

I am going to need some time to analyze things, so I'm putting
any decisions about this on hold while I do that.

But a couple of things occur to me right off the cuff and I'll
mention those as a starting position.

First and formost, a Reform has to be oriented towards aiding
the existing membership rather than towards getting them out
of the CofS.

In this respect, even I am in a strange position because of
having one foot in the freezone.  A lot of my writings are
freezone oriented rather than reform oriented.

What CofS should become is the equivallent of a freezone
group that happens to practice standard tech and behaves
well towards everybody and does not abuse its membership.

Although many critics would like to get people out of CofS,
and many freezone groups would like to have members going
to them instead, and even I would like to see them reading
my self clearing book, all of these other agendas are
inappropriate for a foundation whose target is to bring
about an internal reform within CofS.

An internal reform means leaving the members in there and
having them change the place around.  These other agendas
(including my own) must be kept away from LMT if it is to
have a chance of success.

For example, it is appropriate for LMT to demand that
there be no censorship of information about LRH, but it
would be wrong for LMT to engage in Hubbard bashing or
rubbing members noses in some of the less pleasant truths.

Consider somebody who idolizes Jefferson for writing the
Bill of Rights.  It would not be proper to keep needling
them about Jefferson's slave mistress.  It would only be
appropriate to prevent them from censoring that from his
biography.

Remember that Lisa herself was a Scientologist and would
have objected heavily to any form of Hubbard bashing or
poking fun at Scientology beliefs.

The proper goal for LMT would be to ensure that it would
be safe for her to practice her religion if she were
alive today.  In other words, we must remove the risks
and the exploitation rather than destroying the beliefs
or attacking the Scientology tech that she followed.

I would suggest that a sort of bill of rights might
be needed.  Offhand, I have one point to suggest and
I probably will think of others.  It is -

TO ALLOW THE FREE USE AND SPREAD OF THE SCIENTOLOGY TECH 
REGARDLESS OF THE DICTATES OF ANY ORGANIZATION.

Since Scientology is a Religion, this is a direct expression
of first ammendment rights.

Note that this says ANY organization, and most especially
includes CofS but is not limited to CofS.

I think that most of the membership would agree to this
point and even get behind it enthusiastically.  The only
objections (and there will be many) would be from those
who wish to control the tech for purposes of exploitation
and money making.

I think that freezone would back this one up because it
supports their own faith in the tech and desires to use
it outside of the rigid orthodox CofS mindset.

And I think that if the critics pause and think for a
moment, they will realize that this also causes all the
lawsuits against them to evaporate, so I hope that they
will go along with this as well.

It is with points like this, which are positive from all
sides, which will bring about an internal reform.

It is also important to get the membership to read
the Scientology Reformer's Homepage that I wrote and
which can be found at fza.org among other places.  This
is the one which indicates most strongly to loyalists.
Those whom I have been able to talk into looking at it
always come around and start supporting reform.  When
I wrote it, I was thinking deeply upon how I felt when
I was on staff in 1968 and it is exactly what would have
reached me at that time.  Most of my other writings are
far too harsh.  So take this one as a guideline.

If we could get some media exposure of the reformer's
homepage at fza.org in the LA and Clearwater areas, it
would be a tremendous help, because most loyalists and
even most of the fence sitters do not know to look.

A common story that I hear from people who are on the
fence is that they glanced at ARS once a few years ago,
saw nothing but bashing, and decided it was useless to
look there any further because they still believe in
the tech even though they think the organization is
very screwed up.  The Reformer's homepage will turn these
people around, whereas rants about LRH and Crowley will
not.  Note that any advance tech student who has heard
the Philadelphia Doctorate Course knows that Ron called
Crowley his friend and nobody every left Scientology
on account of that.

Also note that fza.org has no group or organization
behind it.  In other words, there is no moneymaking or
profit that they will gain from attracting attention.
This is important because it makes it impossible for
the CofS to claim that it is being promoted for purposes
of stealing their business.  This is not true of many
of the other freezone pages which are sponsored by
practicioners who might gain business.  Fza.org is
special in that it was done as a labor of love by people
who are not practicing but only wanted to help spread
information.

This is only a start.  I'll be examining the LMT charter
etc. and seeing what else I can come up with.

All the best,

The Pilot (aka Ken Ogger)


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A PERSONAL NOTE

(originally posted mid March 2000)


Hi,


I know that some of you have been worried about me, probably
with good reason since I have been silent and not actually
doing very well (in case any of you are picking up things
telepathically).  However, I do remain in private comm with
a few people and they would warn you if something really
dreadfull happened to me, so don't worry too much.

To some degree I have been a sort of a hot house flower,
living a charmed life and unused to adversity.  I attribute
this to the keyed out OT state I hit in 1968.  Since then
even the rough periods have tended to resolve fairly
easily and the odds always seem to shift in my favor.

Until recently, that is.  Since the beginning of December
I seem to have been living under a dark cloud.

This might be the simple mechanics of having exhausted
all my energy and resources without even attempting to
get a return flow.  Hubbard actually was right in
demanding some exchange in the early days although it
went way beyond any reasonable limits in later years.
But my own ethics and the practicalities of working
in the face of a jelious monopoly didn't leave me any
way of doing that.  So its all on the net for free and
I have no regrets about doing that.  But it did leave
me sort of drained.

Or it might be that I've triggered some sort of implant
to prevent us from helping each other.  Unfortunately,
only a small percentage of the implants have been researched
and right now I'm too far downscale to be mapping out
a new one.  In fact it is amazing to me that I was in a 
case state for years that let me just list off implant 
items accurately and rapidly.  I'm certainly not up to
doing that right now.

Or it could be some other research error.  I did have
a bad year once before and you can just count on this
happening occasionally if you are wandering in uncharted
territory.  But the last time I had lots of reserves
and resources and simply moped around and felt stuck
and frustrated, and in those days Ann was an extremely
supportive 2D.  This time there is no safety margin.
For three years I've been burning the candle at both 
ends to keep writing and researching while supporting
myself at a full time job in computer software.

I've warned you before that I don't have all the
answers and I only consider myself a stepping stone
in an ongoing progression of research rather than
being an ultimate savior.  I've seen and experienced
miracles both from my own work and from Hubbard's,
but there is still as much unhandled as has been cleared
up.  Nobody is walking through walls yet or able to
create and unmock bodies at will as they need them.

It does seem to me that I could get selfish and
become a bit of a scam artist, promising more than
I could deliver and raking in the bucks.  That's not
really my style, but I wonder if such a choice was
made by Hubbard in the later years, or by Miscaviage
when the pressures of the Sea Org became too great.
I do think that Ron's early work was well intentioned,
but there is scam like behavior in the later days, 
and as for Miscaviage, the rumors are that he was 
a good and idealistic kid when he first joined staff
although you hear the opposite later.

I should also mention that I have not been attacked
by OSA, they seem to be leaving me completely alone.

Anyway, this is a warning that communications from
me will be few and far between.

My email address is truthseeker7@excite.com, but I
really don't have the time or energy to handle 
correspondence right now.  Rich patrons or attractive 
females (LA area) might help, but I doubt that any 
will show up.  LA is a bit of a spiritual ghost town 
right now.

Then of course there is Antony's theory that a bunch
of CofS OTs might be sticking pins in voodoo images
of me.  I doubt it, I think I'd notice and they don't
have anyone that strong.  Anyway, such attacks rebound 
heavily against the attacker.

Regardless of my current difficulties, the material
in Self Clearing and Super Scio is the safest and
most powerful stuff, written when I was in exceedingly
good shape.  If there are bugs in my research, it
would be in the later research notes of last year.
And of course the research line remains incomplete,
with many more levels yet to be mapped out.  Whether
I get back in shape and do it or somebody else comes
along remains to be seen, but I still believe that
we will have a complete road out eventually.

All the best,

The Pilot (aka Ken Ogger)


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OSA - DIRTY TRICKS AND FOOTBULLETS

(originally posted mid April 2000)


For sheer stupidity and reactive dramatization, OSA wins
the prize.

Actually I'd better take that back because it is a
generalization and there are some well intentioned and
intelligent people in there who do not follow with
blind fanaticsm.

In fact, they have been very nice during this last year.

Until DM went on a rant and demanded my head.

And now it is like the keystone cops bumbling around.

Stupidity exists in the presence of suppression.

Apparantly somebody told him I'd make a better leader
for the CofS than him and he got very very upset.

He never bothered to ask me if I felt like running the
organization, but just assumed that I was as power hungry
as he was.  But my goals are towards being a tech
finder and goal maker (see Ron's "Essay on Management")
rather than giving orders and having people kiss my ass.

Any sensible opponent would have noticed that I've been 
quiet in recent times and let sleeping dogs lie.

In fact, I ran into case trouble back at the beginning
of December, trouble having to do with sex and 2D,
and since that is the area that I got into Scientology
to solve back in the 1960s, I haven't wanted to talk
too much until it is resolved.  Those of you who are
following my tech writings know about that because I
posted a whole lot of stuff on it back in at the start
of January (post69.txt in the Pilot archives).

And, as usually happens when one has too much case in
restimulation for too long, eventually I got into some
real world trouble as well, getting picked up for
driving under the influence at the end of January
(greatly exaggerated and alter-ised by OSA).  If anybody
is bothered by that, they should go sit at the feet
of some lilly white hipocrite who is preaching sweetness
and light.  I never promised to be perfect but only to
do my best and tell you the stright dope.  And the
real world gurus are not so sanctimonious.  I never
criticised Ron for being a two fisted scotch drinker
or chain smoking Kools and I don't plan to now, it
was one of his warmer humanizing traits.  And even
Christ used one of his miracles to make wine so that
people could get drunk at a party.

And I have made a crack about LA being a ghost town
as far as the freezone is concerned.  This is a
disappointment to me.  There was a big and active
freezone (called the independent field) here back
in the eighties and it has pretty much dispersed to
other parts of California to get away from CofS.

DM apparantly took this as a sign of weakness, ignoring
the fact that a third of the CofS membership is 
pro-reform.  But those folks are all keeping their heads 
down and that leaves me feeling quite lonely.  I
really wish they would stop letting their comm be
suppressed and start talking more, but this is how
people act on Earth, being afraid to be the first
to speak openly.  That is how we end up with Hitlers
and McCarthys.

So DM threw one of his screaming fits and a few
not-so-bright brow-beaten people at OSA began launching
footbullets to appease him.

The first foot bullet was what I will call the nattering 
website with its amazing tale of how the pilot has crash 
landed, just dripping with venom and prejudice and never
once addressing any tech or policy point that I have
raised but only screaming about what a bad leader I'd
make.

It's just astonishing that there was not one LRH quote 
or policy reference on that nattering page, but just 
natter.  I quote LRH like crazy on the Scn Reformer's
Home Page, and they just ignore LRH and spew out
tons of entheta.

And then there was the terrible set of pictures, hacked
up intensively with an image editing tool.  My best
guess is that these originated from a wedding of two
Sea Org members that I attended many years ago but it
is hard to tell because of the extreme alterations.

They changed the colors in the picture.  My hair is
reddish-brown, not grey, and my eyes (blacked out in 
the picture to make me look like I'm asleep or drugged) 
are blue-grey hazel.  They blacked out the mouth too,
giving me an impossible expression and added various
black spots as if they were warts or something.  The
only thing that was correct was the wild and untrimmed
beard which makes it obvious to me that it is an old 
picture from when I was comfortable in a 2D and casual
about such things (I keep the beard nicely trimmed these 
days).

And they covered the page with the most restimulative
symbols they could think up, anti-radiation symbols
and pictures of space aliens and crashed planes and
so forth.  If anybody felt sick looking at the page,
they can thank OSA for trying to push bank buttons.

The page just made them look bad, like a bunch of
spitefull bigots, and was taken down within a day.

And as if that wasn't enough stupidity, they then made
their next mistake, which was to send one of their
agents into my office.

They might have gotten away with it if they had stayed
really quiet and subtile, but with Davey screaming
at them, they had to produce results.

So they swiped my checkbook on Tuesday, apparantly 
hoping to find something like big world conspiracy 
bucks (haha) flowing through my accounts and they 
even stole the name and address organizer from the 
desk of my department manager (a really stupid move).

Of course maybe I'm just being paranoid and the spy
was planted by some criminal organization or competitor
related to my job and had nothing to do with the
fight to reform Scn.  I am, after all, in a high
security environment that handles confidential
financial data and is subject, in the normal course
of business, to infiltration by ordinary real world
criminal elements.

But that fact means that my place of business (I work
in financial software) is poised on a hair trigger
to catch any such infiltrator, no matter who they
are working for.  Whether or not it is OSA still
remains to be seen, but I know which way I'd bet my
money, and we're going to have a lot of fun with
this one.

However, their biggest potential footbullet is to
be annoying me so that I might start posting again.
I'm reluctant to do that right now because I'm in
a bad mood and struggling with tech problems.  And
I have always been restrained by my sympathy for the
hard working and idealist staff and my belief in
the tech.  I have avoided using heavy artillery,
I want the place cleaned up rather than in ruins.
I am on a crusade rather than at war with CofS.

Easter is a time for forgiveness and contemplation
of higher spiritual truths.  So I'm going to drop
all this and put my attention on more theta things.
I advise everyone, especially OSA, to do the same
and to try and take on their best aspects instead
of their worst.

Have a nice Easter,

The Pilot (aka Ken Ogger)

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ANNIVERSARY POST

(June 22, 2000)

It has been about a year since my ex-wife Ann gave my identity
to OSA (and I immediately posted my bio to the net in response)
and Independence Day (the 4th of July in the US) is coming
around again, so it seems like a good time to look things over
and bring you all up to date.

Also, it is a good time to collect all of my posts for this
year (just a handfull) into an archive file for people's
convienience.

I wish that I could be telling you tales of great victories
or big breakthroughs to OT, but the truth is that I have been
in a bad case spin since early December and I still haven't
made it through.

This is really a researcher's problem.  Sometimes you mess up
and you are so far past the well researched areas that it is
almost impossible for anyone else to dig you out.  The last
time this happened (sortly before writing Super Scio) it took
me a year to find a way through and I was damn lucky to make
it.  And I think that Ron went into a spin like this and
never did really get through it which is why the Scn organization
shifted from one of the most high ARC groups I have ever know
into a gestapo-like fanatical cult.

As an aside, my ex-wife was of tremendous aid in getting me
through that bad year.  Although she is a hard line orthodox
Scientologist and was always unwilling to listen to my ideas
and now pretty much considers me to be Scientology's anti-Christ,
her own ethical codes were that I had a right to do what I
wanted to with my own mind (even "squirreling") as long as I 
did not infect other people and block Scn.  And so she held
my life together around me during that bad year even though
she did not believe in the research I was trying to get through.
One of the reasons that I can't let go of the 2nd dynamic area 
is that I know that it is dangerous for me to research without 
a mate by my side.

Anyway, I went along in blisfull carelessness during that
first half year (June to November 1999) after my identity
was exposed.  I kept researching, but across a broad spectrum
rather than in the areas that kicked my teeth in later.  And
having been betrayed by a 2D, I was not anxious to start 
another one immediately, which turned out to be a big
mistake.  Because then I was not keyed in and was fantastically
lucky and could probably have gotten somebody easily.  Now
its different because girls do not want a needy, griefy,
charged up guy who is hovering on the edge of a nervous
breakdown.

At the start of December, the area of 2D / sex keyed in
heavily.  Amoung other things, all the old whole track losses
of great loves etc. keyed in heavily.  And of course being
unable to find anybody brought in heavy invalidation as
well and both of these areas (loss and inval) are ones in
which the current tech is very weak and we do not have
anything better than shallow handlings or running out of
single incidents.  And let's not discount the "middle age
crazys" since I'm 51 and right in that age group where
many of the ordinary folks either get a bit stir crazy or
tend to get sick and shut down entirely.

As you know if you've read post69.txt, I processed like
crazy on this area during December and I did come to a big
keyout at the start of January which let me do the writeup.

Unfortunately the keyout only lasted a few days and when
the remaining unhandled charged kicked in, I was crushed
and felt that a case solution was hopeless.  That put a
second bad spin in on top of the first one because all my 
hopes and dreams were pinned on finding a way out through
processing.  And then I got into trouble in the real
world too (see my previous posting in May) and I knew that
I was in hell with no excape.  Need I mention that I was
also under heavy stress with my computer job and also from
watching over my shoulder for OSA and the impingements of
getting a divorce etc.

I have been writing occasional research notes since then,
but I have been very reluctant to publish anything.
Basically I do not trust my technical judegment right now
and I worry about fatal flaws or hidden mistakes which
might throw others into hell along with me.  That is also
why I have been tending to ignore technical questions
etc.  

But anytime I have gotten anything, I've written it up and 
passed it on to a small group of my trusted  friends in the 
freezone.  I really don't believe in holding anything back, 
but I think I should wait until I'm out of the soup and 
review everything for accuracy before I pass some half-right 
restimulative mess out to the public.  So I marked this
stuff "temporarily confidential".  If something should happen 
to me, my friends have instructions to post these for the sake 
of the next researchers who might follow in my footsteps.  If
it should happen that these things do get posted, please
be carefull of them because there might be things in them
which are wrong.

I will say that there are a large number of grades type areas
which need further research.  

The grade I put out on Inval is a halfway measure (like the 
first version of the grade on Protest before I beefed it up 
with the protest/admire process) and needs more work.  What
is there is runable but is simply not enough.

A major grade on "loss" is definitely needed (general increase 
of confront of loss).  One of the big questions is how do
you as-is something which is gone.  It would seem like
having lost, let's say, a car, may leave a vacume, a sort of
negative mockup of the missing car, and be very different
from the situation where one simply doesn't have a car.
And these vacumes tend to pull in bad stuff if they are not
masked by new havingness in present time.

Another grade area is the "false" button.  A false accusation
goes far beyond the normal grade 2 (overts) phenomena and
tends to pull in both false accusations and also the thing
you falsely accused the other person of.

My latest struggle is with an actual GPM series from the
magic universe.  Just because we start a new goals series
for this universe doesn't mean that we drop the old ones.

I was lucky on the current goals series (which is oriented
towards survival and being superior to others) because I
was up near the top of the goal "to be intelligent" and
it is easy to take these things apart if you haven't yet
sunk into the heavy charge of the later stages of the GPM.
This is written up in chapter 3 of Super Scio.  But note
that an actual GPM goal will not "run out".  Abandoning
intelligence would make one stupid.  Instead it cleans up
and then one expands outward so that one can be holy
and strong and free and responsible etc. at the same time
as being intelligent instead of having various abilities
in opposition to each other.

But the old magic universe series is still functional and
it is very hedonistic (pleasure seeking) and quite abberative.
The goals seem to be oriented to recieving things like
fame and wealth and power (I think Ron's was on Fame) and 
might begin with "to be worshipped".  For myself I think 
that my current goal from that series is "to be loved" but 
I am way down near the bottom of the item pattern and the 
items are heavily decayed into sex etc. and right on the 
edge of a flip over into hatred.  A super charged area that
is barely runable.

It would have been too much to be lucky enough to be high
up in the pattern in both the current and the magic universe
GPM series.  So all I can do is be thankful that my decades
long marriage was enough to keep the super decayed magic
universe goal out of restimulation while I was doing the
research in Super Scio.  We all have spots of free track
in the middle of these GPMs where they are temporarily out
of restim and one can think clearly.  Too bad that it
didn't stay out of restim a bit longer.

Unfortunately, I'm only managing to process little bits out
of the damn thing and the charge level is out the roof.
And for all I know it is not even the real why but only
yet another lock that is kicking in (I've run off so many
things only to find myself still spinning).

I'm sorry that I'm raising more questions than answers here.
That's another reason to keep my mouth shut until I get it
all sorted out.  Maybe all this charge will blow soon.  We'll 
see.

By the way, many of the people I worked with in the NY
Scientology org have not a clue how young I really was.
I was still in high school when I got on staff.  That is
why I grew the beard and cultivated a much older appearance.
Eventually I was an auditor and executive and people were
looking to me for advice and thinking that I was in my
late twenties or early thirties, and really I was about 18.

Recently I flipped my appearance, dropped the beard, and
reversed the postulates that I used to make myself look
about ten years older than I was.  Now people are guessing
my age as around 40 rather than 60.  But the heavy losses
that have gone into restimulation are still visible in
my flows and I'm not sure how to turn them off short of
actually finding a 2D.

So there you have it.  I'm still bumbling along not knowing
all the answers and barely hanging on to an existance
which has become a bit miserable.

I can be reached by email at truthseeker7@excite.com but
I have so many distractions and so much charge kicking
around right now that I'm very bad a replying.

The tech that's out there does work, it only misses the
boat occasionally.  So get what you can out of it.  And
encourage anybody who is really good at research (unfortunately
very few right now) so that we can find the rest of the 
answers eventually.


Best,

The Pilot (aka Ken Ogger)

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"SCIENTOLOGY REFORMER'S HOME PAGE" are all over the net.

See The Self Clearing Homepage for URLs to these sites
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Or see The Pilots Home Page at http://fza.org/pilot/index.htm

Some translations are available, see links at fza.org

Also see the new www.fzint.org website.

This post will be included in Super Scio Archive #70.
See the Pilot Archives at FZA.ORG.

Note that some of my posts only go to ACT.  I don't actually
use the pilot@scientology.at email address.  That is just
window dressing.  I prefer to keep techical discussions out
in the open.  I watch ARS and ACT for messages with Pilot in 
the subject line.

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