Javier
Solo
Since the "ups and downs" did not cease, the cause of it has not been found. In sessions and shortly after you feel "up" and between sessions go "down".
LRH defines auditing as "a game of exteriorization versus havingness".
These sessions indicate you want to help exteriorize thetans from the games themselves. But in-between sessions there are havingnesses you want (such as a motor cycle, for instance) and other qns also want certain havingnesses.
All this can cause an intention-counter intention problem or (if auditing is used) a roller coaster of up and down the havingnesses and exteriorization scale.
The solution to all this is to OPTIMIZE the HAVINGNESS and then bring it up on a gradient to EXTERIORIZATION from the games. Some players haven't even got what they wanted IN the games yet!
To handle this Roller Coaster, the first thing to do is to realize the "OPPONENTS" in all this (at this level) is your own purposes for either exteriorization or havingness.
Some purposes (reinforced by postulates and intention) lead up toward SourceLevels and the finish of the Games, and some lead to HAVINGNESSES DOWN IN THE GAMES, lower than where you are auditing. This makes a push-pull occurring in and out of session. Also remember HAVINGNESS is linked to the experience of mass and pressure. It adds TIME. Source and OMNI actions occur almost instantly (or very fast) and subtract or shorten TIME.
So realize the above fully, and if you want to work for an optimized position of stability which can then increase on a gradient (after experiencing it to a win) to whatever you want, then we can do so. The other Players will have to be handled on their own gradient, not yours or mine. Ron states this in the auditor's code, "to audit the case in front of you, not some imagined case".
So the best thing for you to do to ease off this UP-DOWN condition, now that it has become clear how it operates, is to write down the answers to the following questions in session:
What purposes (postulates, intentions) do I have about exteriorizing myself and others from the Games? (And also put in how fast you expect these to occur so we can measure the havingness of it.)
What purposes (postulates, intentions) do I have about experiences or havingnesses I want in the Games? (Also note how long you have been expecting these experiences and havingnesses, so we can measure the non-havingness of it.)
When you do 1, 2, then 1, 2, again, etc., till it seems complete, you will start to see how these answers are in opposition to each other in terms of producing an OPTIMUM AND IDEAL SCENE, for achieving all that you want. You may have a big cog. End off at this point.
Don't do anything to audit these purposes as that is not part of this C/S. Auditing is not to deprive you of your purposes but to help you achieve them all. In other words, we will OPTIMIZE the situation.
BR
Sr C/S Ron's