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Case Reports

Loop Thetans, Use of PrPr 6 on Unresponsive Groups of Postulate Thetans

13 July 1988

WHOLE SESSION ON THE BLACK GLASS BALL WITH POWER PROCESSING

21.06.88 TTA

4,1 (2)

Run into guy in tracing back a postulat "I'd like to drink a beer".

Pre-OT: Yes! It's a guy. It's an Anti-Thetan, that's why the read is not so big. (sf) It's this guy there in my left backwards.

Hello! x

Postulat? Pre-OT: I can perceive him like little glass-ball, not very big, very shaped. It doesn't feel like a ball. He's kind of controlling the Anti-MEST body. Like a shepherd of the Anti-MEST body.

Hello to the Anti-Thetan: Not responsive at all. It's- like shaking a corpse! (Comment of Pre-OT.) FBD 4,6

Contact this guy 4,8

1. Tell me a source

2. Tell me about it.

3. Tell me a no-source

4. Tell me about it.

1. Somatic (sf)

2. Somatic

3. Somatic 4,9

4. strange body sensations

1. Somatic

2. Somatic

3. Somatic

4. Somatic

1. no source

2. there are no sources

3. he & Pre-OT

4. just running automatically (somatic)

1. not Ore-OT

2. he can handle her like a puppet

3. she (pre-OT)

4. pre-OT can't originate

1. he - of somatics

(pre-OT: with every answer he's giving me somatics)

2. he can control her via the body and can give her any somatics she can imagine.

3. the Anti-MEST body

4. this Anti-MEST body just reacts to his commands

1. he 5,0

2. he can do many things with the Anti-MEST body. He's always awake and can look whether he should do something with the Anti-MEST body or not. He can take energy away from the body and the body can't be controlled as well, the body just feels weak.

When he does this, she thinks she can't ride motor-cycles. He's proud about that.

3. Anti-MEST body

4. He just controls it. The body itself can do nothing. but if he pulls the strings, he can do marvellous things with that body.

(Pre-OT origination: It's incredible because I've been thinking exactly that sentence for days: 'I can do marvellous things with that body!', and I was wondering about that)

1. He is the source of doing those things and operating the Anti-MEST body. There is no body else to do it. He does it.

2. He likes it. It's his job and he does a very good job and he nearly never fails and gives her really nice somatics. 5,2

3. Mostly all is no-source.

4. He's doing the things

1. Somehow she's a source

2. somehow it's funny because she is talking to him, as she is a source of comm to him, and he can't remember the last time somebody talked to him.

3. her body

4. Really so. He affects the Anti-MEST body and this one affects the MEST-body and if she tries to handle the MEST-body that doesn't work because it's a no-source

1. she is a source

2. probably we could do something together against bodies and then, we could have nice game, (Pre-OT gets telepathically: he has the idea that he's helping her in working against bodies!)

3. the bodies

4. they are totally dependent either from him or from her. He can't run the MEST-body, but can stop it in its functions.

1. he is now more source, because now, is also a source of comm, not only of givining somatics.

2. he's more source

3. everything that is not source

4. this guy on (other pre-OT) is no-source too

1. he

2. this guy at runs the Anti-MEST body of (same person) and he can influence this guy at.... 5,3

3. all these Anti-MEST bodies. They are all controlled.

4. Yes! They are controlled by guys like him! Sometimes one guy like him is controlling up to 10 bodies or more, via other Anti-MEST Thetans. Like it's set up.

1. he

2. he does his job. He's trained to do that and does it very-well and it's all fine (OT: I'm terrible tired!)

3. she was kind of no-source as she never talked to him and noticed him. Now it's nice to talk to her.

4. he likes his job and can do it very accurately and influences Anti-MEST bodies. Sometime he gets order from another source, but only for hard cases! Normally he's doing it by himself

1. a guy walking around in Anti-MEST and looking if everything is going right and now, and then he's visited by this guy and maybe gets a special order and this guy is a source too

2. nothing else more

3. the things he uses: the Anti-MEST parts

4. it's like he said

1. this guy is a source. He's not his source, but it's a source

2. there's a big source from which everything exists and who have gave him his Job and created everything

3. everything is actually a no-source but this big source, who elected guys out of the nosource to become sources, limited sources, but sources to do special jobs and being the sources of special effects. All the things which can be affected by sources like him that has been elected as a source. He's wondering why she is a source too.

4. he's wondering why she's a source and if she got elected too, because she's at the other side and he thought sources are only on his side

1. he is

2. he got elected as such

3. everything that is not created is potentially a no-source. But it can become a source by being created. or a real no-source!

4. the hip source creates and elects and depending on that one is source or no-source. Rut in actual fact, there's only one source, because all sources come from the big source and without the big source there couldn't be sources.

1. she is a source! He didn't recognize her as a source, but now she's talking to him and now he's wondering as the big source only gave life to guys at that side and now help asking her, whether we have a big source too?!

2. that was it

3. everything which is not a source is a no-source

4. he's thinking whether there are more sources than the ones he knows so far, he didn't have the idea until now

1. he

2. he is! He is proud! He got elected and he is a source!

3. before he was elected he was a no-source

4. that wasn't so nice. He can't remember so much, but he thinks it was not nice. He likes much better to be a source.

1. he is the source of her body being so tired 5,4

2. a special gift from him, as an acknowledgement for her body as he likes talking to, her about that. But it's not his idea giving her that tiredness. Somebody told him to do that as it would be nice acknowledgement, gift for her!

3. he's not interested in no-sources

4. what he said

1. he is a source and she and the guy giving him orders, the big source... And now he's wondering whether the big source has got a source probably because he could probably be a source of a source too... Probably! So there are more sources probably then he knows

2. probably all that is no-source could be potentially all source. It could be more fun. He likes that idea. Sometimes it's boring a bit, to do what he does, but he won't complain it's ok.... 5,35

3. he's not a no-source and she is not a no-source too. And everything is somehow a source too. For example the Anti-MEST body is the source for the somatics on the MEST-body! 5,5

4. depending on the viewpoint, everything is a source! Rut him and her are bipger sources than the bodies, Anti or not!

1. he could probably be a source of something else tool Not-only Anti-MEST body! 5,4

2. this just came-into his mind as it is boring to do the same thing all the time. He could probably ask the big source if he can do something else after all this time influencing Anti-MEST bodies.

3. what he is not able to do now is potentially a no-source for him

4. this no-source part of him maybe could be recovered, so he can do more than influencing Anti-MEST bodies.

1. he

2. he thinks he can do things and this is why she's talking to him, as now he has new thought and it is really good and he likes it!!

3. all that is not done or there, not applied, not activated.

4. if it could be activated it could become source, but it's not

1. he is!

2. he comes to know that he is really than just influencing Anti-MEST bodies, and he's potentially a source for more things! (sf)

3. (sf) everything he is not!

4. parts of him not used. Maybe the big source planned something with them.

1. he is a source

2. he is a source

3. things which are not sources

4. things that don't do things. He's no-source in certain aspects, and he's like to turn these no-source parts into source actually!

1. he is! That he came to know so many things! He can see more clearly! He feels bigger and better

2. she is the source for him feeling better

3. he doesn't know whether he could do that. So in that direction he's no-source

4. he thinks that she is not created by the big source and he's like to know who she is and what she's doing as he likes that better than influencing Anti-MEST bodies!

1. he's a source!

2. doesn't know exactly what source he is, but he is, He doesn't know whether being a source to operate the Anti-MEST body is really all. 5,4

3. it's not true that there is a big difference between a source and a no-source, as it's depending on what source, so probably only the big source is the only source.

4. if everything is created is not source. Only the big source is the source of everything but there's something more about it he didn't remember yet.

1. the big source! For sure!

2. he created all! So he must be the only source basically. The rest is only source potentially. But there's something funny it's like he had-forgotten something he should remember, but that he can't remember.

3. he's a no-source

4. he's created. Therefore he's not a source. He was created so he became what he is because of somebody else. So he's not the source of himself. so he's a no-source.

1. the big source

2. he made all that is at that side

3. everything else is a no-source, except the big source.

4. if everything comes from the big source, everything else is no-source and he wants to differenciate clearly!

1. she! Obviously, because she's not a big source but she's a source and has not been created by the big source, so he's wondering...

2. he doesn't understand that, as she's obviously a source! Maybe she's a big source too and he has the honour to talk to her.

3. he is a no-source as all the power he nets, comes from the big source. Without that, he'd be nothing! So he's a no-source. 5,5

4. (sf) wondering how this works, because if the big source gave him energy, that would have sometimes gone, but this is not so, there must be something in him independent from the big source. He has no explanation for that, but there is something

1. He is a bit of a source. Independent from the big source! Some energy from himself! So there's something like a bit of source inside himself! Maybe the big source created him with that quality of never ending energy.

2. thinking about and he doesn't get it why the big source would create him with an immortal energy? He could then escape after finding it out! There's something more to know! Probably everything else has also this that he has, so probably there are no no-sources, but he's not sure!

3.  

4. he can't figure out, but there is something funny. He doesn't want to question the big source, but maybe there's something wrong!

1. he is the source of his thought!

2. he never thought about that before. He was always doing what he was told. And this is coming from him, so there must be a bit of source of him.

3. he is half source! Half no-source!

4. he can't tell much about that! He is kind of both and now has to figure out the truth. 5,5

1. he is the source of this idea and he's probably not created! It would he nice (sf) 5,5

2. if he were not created, hold be a source.

3. as long as he looks at himself as created, he's a kind of no-source.

4. he doesn't understand that! (sf) He can't explain what is all tout! There's a barrier that he hits when he thinks about that! He's just a created "Anti-MEST body controller". It was a silly idea to think that he probably was not created and now he feels bad and that's because she talked to him... (OT: something happened! He feels again as at the beginning!)

1. nothing

2. there are no sources, but the big source.

3. everything but the big source

4. everything but the big source

1. the big source 5,6

2. nothing else

3. the rest

4. the rest, because it got created by the big source.

1. the source of all is the big source.

2. the big source thought all and created all

3. he's a no-source as he's created by the big source as all the rest

4. he would not be without the big source

1. she is a kind of a source FBD 5,5

2. talking to him

3. him absolutely

4. he can only do what the big source is telling him to

1. he is a very little source

2. he can at least influence the Anti-MEST body

3. he is as well a no-source

4. he can't do things, except the orders of the big source

1. big source

2. everything is coming from the big source

3. the rest

4. the big source is all

1. she is

2. somehow he fears to speak to her without petting orders

3. he! He couldn't talk to her

4. he had to wait till she talked to him. He h - as no order to talk to her, but doesn't have the order to not talk to her. So it's a new situation for him! F F

1. F she is a source

2. he feels more alive! FBD 5,5

3. he was and now has an idea that he maybe could be or at least become a source

4. he feels a bit better! Like having come out of "sleep".

1. there is something pressing him. He has the idea he shouldn't talk to her

2. something presses him not to talk to her

3. that's a source; it's not him!

4. that's coming from somewhere else! It's not from the big source and it's not her, but it's there!!

1. he doesn't know any more sources.

2. he really thinks there are not many more sources than these three sources: big source, her and the source pressing him.

3. he as he is controlled.

4. the guy pressing him is the guy always looking around.

1. this guy is a source as he presses him and he presses her Anti-MEST body and her body will soon fall from the chair if she doesn't pay attention!

2. What about? 5,55

3. he's

4. he's created

1. the big source only

2. he created all

3. the rest

4. all rest is created by the big source

1. the big source. Only source!

2. the big source

3. the rest

4. the rest (OT: Everytime this guy gets to an awareness level of thinking about himself as a source something happens and he feels exactly as at the beginning when I contacted him first!) 5,45

Auditor: Let's continue.

1. the big source

2. there's no source but the big source

3. everything

4. the rest depends on the big source

1. she is!

2. somehow talking to him and not automatically or mechanically and she's source, but on the other side.

3. she is a no-source because she's on the other side and that doesn't count.

4. only the things on his side are real. The rest is not real. Only the things on his side are counting.

1. big source

2. what he said

3. he is no-source

4. he's created by the big source

1. he's not a source. Only the big source!

2. everything is created by the big source 5,5

3. everything else

4. that's logical (OT: F LFBD 5,45 I'm not so heavily dope-off as before but I have the feeling LFBD 5,2 that it is like a machine! I have no problem on getting answers, but he is repeating always the same! I don't have the idea that this will handle him, as it doesn't break through ... It's not hard to audit him, except the somatics and this very heavy tiredness.. FBD 5,15 And it doesn't cost much effort the auditing itself, but it's like a record with the same answers FBD FBD 5,1 In the middle, I was so tired.. I thought of laying in my bed, nothing exiting happens 5,1 sleeping for loo years... 5,2

(Break - 5,2 (2))

(Re-Start - 4,0 (2))

(OT origination: The body starts to feel sick!)

1. Tell me an existing condition

2. Tell me how you have handled it

1. being created 4,2

2. does what is created for

1. gives the feeling like sleeping

2. he works on an automatic basis

1. being with others in the hand of god

2. he does what he does for his creator

1. being nothing

2. he didn't handle it. How could he handle it if he wasn't

1. Pre-Being

2. waited to be created to come to life

1. impression of movement

2. got moved

1. something like a light getting brighter and brighter

2. he was just overwhelmed

1. being very very very small and standing in front of a very very large being

2. he just stood there overwhelmed and couldn't do anything

1. being newly born. He got told that he wasn't and that he now is and that it is wonderful that he is now as before he wasn't and he should be very thankful as it's a very big honour to be created by the big source and having a duty to do for the big source. This something very special.

2. He was very happy and thankful of being elected to be created

1. total blackness

2. he was scared. He didn't know what happened and what to do

1. the condition of knowing not to be

2. he wasn't

1. held tried with big effort to go through something

2. he gave up

1. it is as if he as a Thetan was cut in pieces. Something electronical very very fast and hard. From different points these flows came to him. 4,6

2. in total panic

1. he broke down

2. he did nothing

1. he was totally smashed down and something like a big hand took him up very softly and somebody told him he had had a terrible accident and that he now should sleep for a while and that somebody would care for him and that he shouldn't be afraid and everything would be fine... and he just surrendered to this.

2. he was happy that somebody cared for him as he really felt very badly and very smashed down

1. he was just walking along and then running into these "funny waves" he was talking before a total shock, turning everything around. Before, he was just a Thetan walking around. These waves came and everything imploded like everything was turned upside-down, anchorpoint inside of the Thetan things like that.

2. he was totally shocked. He didn't understand it at all

1. there was something that he was curious about what it was and he wanted to know what it was and when he came closer that happened

2. he didn't handle it. he was handled

1. he was like a star with many other stars having a duty.

2. he did his duty

1. total emptyness

2. there was nothing to handle

1. unconsciousness

2. he doesn't know he was unconscious

1. being dead

2. he was just dead and waited for his resurrection

1. total blackness

2. he couldn't handle. There was not only total blackness, but huge pressure

1. he was just walking and somebody told him to go somewhere to look at something funny that he should go and lock and he did and he got into these waves

2. he was very curious and went there and something happened. He can't bridge from what was then and now and there was something in-between he wants to know

1. he has the feeling he's not what he should be. Something happened with him. but hp doesn't know what

2. he hasn't handled it yet, but this is the first time he's wondering about this. It seems to be funny.

1. he thinks he was a Thetan (free) and he is wondering what he is now. He doesn't feel like a free Thetan. He somehow feels in prison

2. he's trying to pet out of that, but-somehow it doesn't work

1. he can't remember. There's something but he can't remember.

2. held like to handle/remember it

1. he's wondering what he is doing and who she is and what is happening. Feels suddenly waking up from a very long dream and didn't fully get what has happened yet

2. he tries to handle it. He'll find out he hopes

1. he is there

2. he doesn't know what he should do now 4,9

1. there is something with the big source he remembers.

2. he thinks this big source has created him. He's wondering. He doesn't feel so good about that idea

1. he had to do with that source. but that source was not what it pretended to be

2. he's trying to find out right now

1. he is!

2. he is there! 5,0

1. he is there!

2. he doesn't know exactly where he is

1. something is wrong with him

2. he doesn't know how to handle it. He just feels funny!

1. there are no existing conditions

2. there's nothing to be handled without an existing condition

1. being nothing

2. he waited as he was told that after being nothing held be something very nice. It's funny that he can remember when he was nothing. Much unconsciousness and blackness, more nothings with him in this blackness!

1. Then somebody laying the "hand on his shoulder" and tells him: You have no time! You have no space, no matter, no energy. You are not a Thetan. You are not nothing. And then something like: Come to me, so I give you something so you are not nothing. And then he gave him something: He was told that he is what he is only because the big source allowed him to be what he is. Otherwise held be nothing. And then he says: You are, but you are not. You are because of me and you Ire not because of me. And then he got hypnotized: during this it must have become this automatism. He got orders. The big source asked him whether he agrees he is a creation of the big source and that if he can see that held not be without the big source. And he agreed to that, as before he was nothing and now he was something as otherwise held benothing again! So it was obvious it was like that! And then the big source told him that hp, only take orders from the big source and that held only do that what the big source is telling him and then he got his post.

2.  

1. he was in the condition of being a controller of a body

2. he controlled it

1. he's automatically working, like stimulus-response basis

2. he did it on this basis as he shouldn't think as the big source thinks and he's acting

1. that's what he did

2. upon the stimulus: kind of working on certain wavelenghts. He pets a certain wavelenght on which he is programmed and then he does something.

1. he's still sitting there, but it seems a bit funny for him to do it, as now he's thinking

2. 5,15 he's just sitting there, wondering somehow

1. being free, but not free

2. he can't move. He can't recognize the things he's perceiving and it's all very funny for him

1. can't move

2. he's stuck

1. he knows why he can't move: there's no space for him. That one doesn't fit for him any longer

2. trying to move and do something but can't

1. maybe he is created because he can't move

2. he can't handle it

1. depending on the big source

2. he doesn't want it

1. being imprisoned

2. held like to get free but can't

1. he's hold 5,1

2. by a postulate (sf)

1. FBD 5,0 wondering about the postulate

2. trying to find out from whom this postulate is coming! Yes!

1. being held by a postulate

2. he thinks this is a co-created postulate of the big source and himself

1. he was in the condition where he agreed to make a postulate with the big source as a "contract" they both made!

2. they used something to fix the postulate. Like if they had used a Thetan for the Postulat or something like that

1. making this postulate

2. this postulate is made as a Thetan, or on a Thetan. It could be that was made via the CVP Or on the CVP!

1. being held by this co-postulate

2. this co-postulate is on another Anti-MEST Thetan. There's a connection between the big source, this Anti-Thetan we are auditing and the co-postulate which is in another person, in Anti-MEST. But he nevertheless is held by the postulate 5,2

1. being held by a postulate
2. held like to know the postulate, but he doesn't remember it

1. he doesn't know what to do
2. he doesn't know how to handle it

1. he doesn't know an answer to that!

(OT: I'm losing contact with him)

2. no answer

1. being lost
2. he doesn't want to be lost

1. not being there
2. not at all

1. being attacked
2. tries to protect himself

1. he's attacked right now

(Tone 40: get out of the session!)

2. now it's gone

1. he's actually free
2. would like to go free

1. he's held 5,1
2. tries to break free from that

1. being threatened badly
2. could do nothing

1. being held back to remember
2. can't handle it

1. being sick
2. needing help

1. being very sick
2. needing very much help

1. dead
2. he didn't handle it.

1. dead FBD 4,9
2. he couldn't handle it. He was dead

1. being told he was deed
2. he believed it 5,0

1. being smashed and told to be dead, but this won't last
2. waited for the end of being dead

1. totally starving
2. starved

1. being helped
2. was thankful to net help

1. was thankful of living again
2. agreed to do everything he was told to

1. told to be an automatism
2. he was one

1. he responded only on special orders or special things
2. he responded only on that

1. he was dead and used all the time in actual fact, even if he thought of being alive
2. he was dead, but alive! Was turned around. Anti. Was dead but alive. He was made an Anti-Thetan.

1.  
2. he didn't handle it. We did handle it. But now it's handled 5,1

1. he is there, he is he
2. what he could do now?

1. he's asking her whether he's not in a good condition 5,15
2. he's wondering what will happen now

1. breaking down
2. he did so

1. being nothing
2. he was so

1. being something
2. trying to figure out what he was

1. dead
2. he didn't handle it

1. he's just mocking it up! It's all not true!
2. it doesn't need to be handled. It's just a mock-up.

1. it can't be handled
2. it can't be

1. he's in the condition of can't be handled
2. he can't be handled

1. 1, he is in that condition
2. he didn't handle it

1. being stuck
2. not handled

1. stuck and can't be handled
2. didn't

1. he is in the condition of not-to-be and to be-nothing-but-something and that can only be handled by the big source, as he is a creation of the big source
2. can't be handled

1. it can't be handled,
2. he didn't

1. he is an Anti-Thetan
2. he didn't

1. that's his condition: fixed forever and can't be handled
2. he can't do anything

1. he is created and be what he is
2. he does what the creator wants him to do

1. being the creation of the big source
2. he doesn't think there is anything to handle on it

1. being part of the creator
2. he is part of the creator

1. not being part of the creator
2. it was terrible

1. he's confused
2. held like to handle the confusion. but he has no stable data

1. being in confusion
2. he didn't

1. all isn't true. He's just dreaming. 5,2
2. he doesn't have to handle as it is a dream

1. he doesn't know who/what he is
2. tries to find out

1. big source told him who he is: a creation of the big source and now will have a nice life doing his job. He must be happy to do that
2. he was what he should be

1. he is not. Just a mock-up. Condition of being mocked-up
2. he cares not be unmocked 5,25

1. not really being
2. tries to be as good as he can

1. being the creation of the big source
2. didn't

1. being out of everything
2. nothing to handle

1. being nothing
2. he was nothing

1. just being because of the big source
2. he was the creation of the big source

1. he's wondering what she wants from him 5,3
2. held like to continue doing his job and not being disturbed by her

1. being heavily disturbed by her
2. he can only say what the big source is telling him to say

(Tone 40: Out of session!)

1. being alone
2. everybody does what he wants with him

1. he's a postulate
2. he does what he should do

1. being totally out of all
2. not at all

1. sad
2. can't handle it

1. hates the idea of being created
2. tries to find out truth

1. he's not sure what he is
2. held like to find out. There's something he should look at, but he's held back. Every time he tries to look at, he's thrown back away by a mechanism as a shield around. It's not a PT thing. Has the idea that the big source betrayed him and gave him false ideas and he would have to look at something.

1. feels better now, not so influenced 5,35
2. will try to look at this thing

1. something wrong with that light. He never was dead. He was just told that he was dead then he was betrayed. But this is a lie
2. he went effect on it

1. he was free before that 5,3
2. he handled his freedom as any other Thetan and he was trapped into something else, other universe

1. got smashed down and so on ... sleeping ... life and job... working all the time. He just wanted to look et that funny thing and all this happened. The funny thing is a movement but it's not a movement. There, but not there. Hard to perceive, but you can perceive it. Different from all, what exists. Really very interesting.
2. Now it's almost handled. He tried to find what that was and all that happened and then he was in a kind of another universe which was totally different from what he knew, totally upside-down from what he knew. He was curious/silly enough to go into that trap.

1. he is not very big
2. he didn't

1. feels quite safe at the moment
2. held like always to feel like this

1. working for the big source
2. he couldn't do other than he was told to do

1. he is there and he is he
2. nothing to handle 5,35

1. nothing else
2. no more

1. very small
2. couldn't handle it

1. being what he is
2. he was and is what he is

1. he doesn't know
2. he can't

1. he can't and he doesn't know
2. he doesn't handle it

1. small and not able to get out of it
2. held to handle it but can't

1. he failed
2. he tried to do his beet but failed

1. failor 5,4
2. he can't

1. there's no other existing condition
2. he can't

1. no answer - somatics -
2. more somatics

1. sensations
2. somatics and sensations

Auditor: Anything you want to say before the break? It really feels that he is stuck. And that there is something he has not really looked at, and it seems to be so well covered up that he can't see what it is. There is something he didn't hit yet. He can't contact that thing. 5,4 I'd have to handle it but I am a bit exhausted. He has the feeling he fails because he couldn't contact and I have the feeling I failed, as I have the feeling that I can't handle this And I feel there are really attacks about this guy and I have really to keep the space in order to audit him. Well, I don't know (sf) It's a kind of feeling of failure failed purpose he's giving answers and answers but at the moment he contact the solution, he gets thrown away. Wording? he can't be handled! - Needless to try, you will fail anyway! - This is too high a gradient for you...! - Who do you think you are that you think you can solve this?! - Anti-MEST can't be handled with the laws of MEST! - This is a never-ending cycle Even if I do my best, I fail! My best is not good enough! - I'm just stopping handling all this things.

Feeling? 5,4 (laughs) LFBD 5,2 UaaaaM You don't make it! I feel sick body-wise and unable to stand all that. - That I won't make it! - I'm too small to make it. - I failed like I always do FBD 5,15 (laughs) I don't find it and I'm not interested to find it. - I'd prefer not to go on, but having a normal life just give up. - I don't feel strong enough FBD 5,15 To be in the wrong film, the wrong role - Total failure - Failed and felt ashamed! - It's really just too much. - 5,3 - "I AM THE PERFECT FAILURE" FBD 5,2

I hate to have that feeling! (laughs/VGIs'.)

(EOS - 4,9

C/S from auditor: The PrPr 6 went fine until the guy contacted there was a postulate Thetan holding him inside; from that point nothing happened, but can't handle answers and guy getting thrown away by postulate holding him! At the end of the session, before ending, I asked the Pre-OT if anything and she told the feeling she was having and on the wording she laughed and there was a huge LFBD. - ok - The feeling is of failure as it was supposed to be tom the guy, who failed before surrendering to the "Big Source".

Suggested C/S:

1. Co-Postulate: Him - Big Source

1. So, I would handle the Postulate Thetan by normal Postulat Procedure, from the wording we already have!

2. I'd go back to PrPr 6, PrPr 4, PrPr 5 on the guy!

P.D. 22.6.88

If this one goes as the one I've handled, then even the PrPrs wouldn't be necessary, as the whole things gets handled with the normal process for Postulate Thetans.

Only at the Blow/Can't Blow-steps, it's necessary to do first the co-postulates (as a mule: Xenu - guy) and then, the guy in the who, plus all other B/CB Steps: especially Rights, Orientation, New Game and sending the guy to debrief to M-Ship and Central, which he does very happy! - Auditor -

C/S from Senior C/S:

1. Don't ask the Pre-OT anything at the end of session when you are still running PrPr 6 on another as she will only give feelings & that's from the uncomplete case cycle of PrPr 6.

2. The PrPr 6 is going fine. The Thetan had "EPs" of Pr 4 & 5 during the session and is now into the somatics & introversion preceeding the REVIV. Do not go off and do anything else, as the PrPr 6 must be brought to EP. Its alright to do shorter sessions if Pre-OT is tired. but the job is to reach the EP of PrPr 6 - and the indicators are that it is close. Good muzzled TRs and intention with the commands will bring it about sooner.

3. Continue PrPr 6 to EP. (These will be a Reviv and BD of TA to between 2.0 & 3.0 and F/N shortly thereafter. Keep running the process until-the F/N occurs AFTER the Reviv.

4. Then check his PrPr 4 & 5. He should F/N on the commands as they are given him. (Don't try to "rehab" the EPs. In Power 4, 5, 6 you just call the commands to see it they F/N. If not, he may need a few more commands and then he will EP. (The reason is that after a REVIV a Thetan is NEWLY in P.T. and you don't try to "rehab" on a "recall" basis as that puts his attention back out of PT and destroys the EP, or gets him into a new case cycle.)

BR
Sn C/S

(Restart - 22.06.88 - 4,35)

R-Factor about going on with PrPr 6

Contact guy 4,5 (Tics - the same as yesterday!)

1. being there
2. makes nothing else then that

1. being split apart somehow
2. tries to find himself together again1. a part of him being taken away somehow
3. he didn't understand that

1. he was told that this would be necessary as a kind of the big source always knows how he is doing and if he's doing badly the big source can help him
2. he was a bit astonished about that but big source told him it would be ok

1. this part of him is being used and combined with something else. He doesn't like so much but it happened.
2. he couldn't do anything. He was totally dependent.

1. it feels he was kind of suddenly very held or very stuck with the combination of this some thing else
2. he couldn't do anything

1. being thrown away somewhere
2. he feared it, but couldn't stop anything

1. suddenly he was totally stopped after being thrown and got fixed in a certain location, where he couldn't move at all and certain things happened to him, musing him much pain. Like electrical beams thrown to him. He was told that if he didn't do his job, this would happen to him. But then he was told to forget that.
2. he did what he was told to

1. there's something hidden that he couldn't find it, as then, if he found that, the whole thing would dissolve
2. he was always wondering about that

1. part of him is used and combined with something via which he can be controlled. A kind of (sf) mule: a part of him with a part of the big source. 4,8
2. held like to find out what that is

1. he was somehow pressed to agree that he is not powerful. He was shown that he is not powerful and he believed it. Not being powerful.
2. he somehow doesn't believe it, even if he was proven he's not

1. he was shown there's a missing part of him and therefore he's not so powerful as before and he has no other stable datum, as he forgot something and he believed he's not powerful
2. he didn't handle it

1. being dependent from the big source. 4,9
2. would like to know what this big source really is

1. he's angry now. (sf) He got betrayed, as he was brought to agree something that held never have done if nothing would have weakened him before. He made an error to invalidate himself.

He gets the whole thing. He was very curious about this thing to look at and there he was "cut" with wavelenghts and very overwhelmed by that. And then, he was in parts, and somebody told him: you are not so strong as you think you were, as now you era split apart! FED 4,75. And then the big source took his part from him, and told him something terrible happened to him, so somebody else else told he was weak and not so powerful. Then the big source took a part of him so he always knows whether he feels good or not, and told him to sleep and the this blackness occured. He got unconcsious in that and he was told that everything would be new after that, that he was dead at that point, but that he shouldn't worry and that held come to life again at the right time. He woke up and saw that huge light which was the big source and told him that he is because of the big source and held not be if the big source had not bring him to life again and that they will now work together and make a contract that will bind them together forever. The big source had that part of him.. and he didn't understand that ... and the big source gave a part of him and then there was a postulate laying above these 2 parts and the postulate was: We are one and one is all and all is the big source and without the big source would be nothing! 4,85 So he was totally connected to the big source. And then there's something more about that... They made the postulate and it was kept by the big source, so the big source can see what he is doing and then he was kicked out, thrown onto something and there he was stopped, and these wavelenghts caused him pain and if he didn't follow the orders if the big source, that would happen to him, and lot was told to him that this was coming from another way and that if he didn't follow the big source this would happen to him again as the right way was following the bin source. 4,9 Then he did his job!

2. he did his job, having the connection to the Anti-MEST body and influencing it via Anti-Theta

1. he doesn't want to be where he is
2. held like to get away, but he doesn't know how he should do that

1. afraid to be punished (penalties)
2. he tries not to put too much attention on what he's doing

1. he's kind of screaming+protesting 5,0
2. the same, but a bit more (sf)

1. he's bitting around him. Fighting.
2. he's jumping up and down

1. impression as if held lay on a bed, but fixed, couldn't move
2. he went insane

1. total fear
2. held look for somebody to help him

1. kind of a big hand taking him up and holding him
2. he was very thankful and feeling better

1. the one with the big hand was talking to him and he was always saying yes.
2. the big source saved him and now he's connect with him, so he is safe and keeps safe, when he signs this contract.

1. being with god and safe and nothing will happen like the little child with his mother
2. he was very happy 5,1

1. the contract with the 2 parts - kind of a marriage, obligation forever. And then some thing happens and during the contract all was nice, shining and warm and after that he kicked, thrown out and the big source showing him his real face. You can't come Tee from me and now I'll use you! then he's hanging there can't move, on an automatic basis and every time these waveslenghts come to him, he's hit by them and relays it to the body or what ever he's ordered to do. He feels heavily PTS actually! 5,15
2. he thinks he is astonished (laughs)

Repeat 2.) he was handled! He did nothing. FBD 511 He's shaking and something falling apart from him! He's just a little tiny sparkling thing 5,1

1. being alive again
2. nothing to handle right now 5,05

1. he is
2. nothing to handle about that

1. total charge feeling total anger. (sf)
2. screaming again

1. he would beat everything down if he could. Totally charged
2. he throws things around 5,1

1. he's terrible screaming and suddenly falls down and is dead
2. he's just laying there

1. still laying there
2. still

OT: heavily charged feeling coming body-wise

1. Old like to kill her 5,15
2. nothing special. somatics

1. he's running against something and thrown back and so on
2. he tries that and falls down

1. the guy is jumping up and down and always bumping his head while doing that
2. finally he falls down

1. an emotion
2. falling down

1. NO!
2. sensations

1. feeling that he's withdrawing
2. he seems not even to be there

1. he's not there
2. what a silly question! if I am not there how I'd handle it! (he's laughing, but not funny)

1. giving her somatics
2. more somatics to her

1. he's in control position to her 5,2
2. he can make her feel good or bad and she can do nothing against it

1. (heavy yawnings) total charged feeling
2. he's not supposed to handle it. Supposed to give it!

1. him giving her rude names
2. not handled

1. he's jumping around and making nonsense
2. not handled

1. no answer
2. somatics FBD 5,0

1. not being touchable. She could not reach him
2. it's not his problem

1. he's making a joke out of her
2. he handles it very well, giving her somatics and laughing at her

1. laughing
2. more laughing

1. he can't do what he wants to do. Held like to do more but he can't. He's terrible angry and mad at the moment and overcharged somehow. Feels overcharged and can't get out of it
2. he's screaming again 5,1

1. giving her somatics
2. he can't handle it and can't bear it any longer

1. insanity
2. he can't handle it 5,1

1. he says to himself that he is insane. so he's insane, so he's nearly dying of insane he is FBD 5,0
2. he can't handle it

1. screaming
2. he can't handle it

1. screaming and somatics
2. if he could he'd throw the cans into her face (sf)

1. all the time he's telling her existing conditions
2. and he can't handle it 5,0

1. he can't tell her anymore
2. he can't handle it

1. No! He will not look at it! This is too terrible! FBD 4,9
2. he hasn't handle it

1. he is screeming: no, no, no ....
2. he's pulled back into something, but still screaming (sf) 4,85

1. held burst and somatics
2. throwing something to the Anti-MEST body

1. he's laying somewhere and in total terror, trying to fight it and get out of it
2. he can't handle it

1. he's screaming and crying: no, no, no
2. very heavy feeling of waiting to jump up and run away very fast

1. still No! Laying somewhere and can't get up and quite good somatics about that, that the OT is having regarding these pictures
2. tries to get free 5,15

1. being killed
2. somebody told him: I kill you. He says: You can't kill me. The other: Yes. I show you that I can kill you terrible fighting. And a weapon going through his lungs even if he-had no body and there's total stuckness, like freezing and total blackness and he's thinking: I'm dead, I'm dead

1. he's dead
2. he was dead

1. into this kind of blackness there was a sun-rising and ha's thinking: well, the sun is rising and 1 can see it, so I'm not dead. He has a bit of hope. 5,1
2. didn't

1. a very bright light telling him he was dead and-that the light was god and that he was only seeing pod because he was dead!
2. he thought it was not too bed to be deed as this was nice

1. being a child of god (sf) 5,05
2. tried to be a nice child of god (sf) 5,0 Everything was fine and he was in heaven and was proud to meet god, that god was very friendly and he is totally charged. His emotion connected to this is hate!

1. being God's creation (in 1.1)
2. it was a nice creation of god. He did all god said and was always loved. Very nice! (1.1)

1. being in the hands of god: in prison!
2. he didn't. He was a big asshole, as he agreed that he could be split apart and was an asshole to believe this could be done. And god is a big asshole! Mis-using postulates.

This is all a big lie! And he made that contract! And how he could do that and make that silly job instead of being a free Thetan! He went into a trap!

1. being totally pissed. 5,1
2. if he could held beat god into his face

1. he can't go free
2. trying to handle it

1. screaming again FBD 5,0
2. screaming a bit more

1. feeling horrible. FBD 4,9 Can't bear it! And he's giving that feeling to OT's body
2. he can't handle it

1. being totally betrayed, knowing he can't do anything about it
2. he can't handle it

1. in the condition of can't handle it as he can't contact it. He can't do what we suppose him to do! He really goes mad about that
2. he can't handle 4,95

1. he can't bear it any longer
2. he can't 4,9

1. there won't be any existing condition nay longer if we go on like this
2. can't FBD 4,8

1. being fooled. And it's his own fault!
2. can't 4,75

1. he made agreements he shouldn't have made 4,9
2. can't

1. he's right and can't
2. he did something which affects him Idly and he's not willing to look at it, as then, he would be wrong and wants to be right

1. he's the fool FBD 4,2
2. he plays the fool FBD 4,75

1. sensations
2. more sensations

1. he won't tell her
2. he can't handle it

1. being fooled
2. his own fault. 4,9 He's such a fool and he won't look at it. Now he knows it is his fault. He is responsible and guilty for what is happening to him. It's terrible. He's not willing to look at what he agreed.

1. he can't handle it
2. can't

1. he can't
2. not willing to handle it. Held-loose his-own respect.

1. afraid 5,0 to look at it
2. afraid to handle it

1. that he made that agreement
2. didn't yet1. This
3. he didn't and afraid to

1. LFBD 4,65 he's silly
2. hp's silly

1. he doesn't reach it
2. he can't 4,7

1. OT: it's like a mock-up and not even a guy - I have that feeling 4,75
2. he can' t

1. unable to be a Thetan
2. she, he's not a Thetan

1. he's not there
2. nothing to handle if he's not there

1. not being
2. nothing to handle

1. he doesn't tell her
2. nothing to handle

1. he's not there
2. nothing to handle

1. no2. no1. he's not
2. he can't

1. he's not
2. no

1. no

(Interference: Tone 4o: Out of session) 5,1

2. no

1. Lost! (guy crying)
2. he lost. He couldn't handle it and losers can't handle anything. LFBD 4,85

1. broken down
2. couldn't

1. having failed as a Thetan
2. withdraw from what he failed

1. (OT crying) crying
2. there was nobody there who told him that he wasn't too wrong. There could be points as well where he could be right. He lost terrible. He lost .... (name)!! FRD 5.0

1. (OT crying) he's created
2. he handled it badly FBD 4,9 because he didn't do his purpose!

1. (OT crying) (sf) He says he is created by her! .... (name of OT)!!! LFBD 4,7
2. he didn't handle it very well

1. he was created to be and then he was trapped and was used against her. He was a kind of a Clone or a duplicate of her, just to be, free Thetan, and he was trapped by what we have found out already and was used as Anti-Thetan to influence her via the Anti-MEST body 4,95 And he was so silly to go into this trap and being used against his own creator (her) and he didn't want to look at and tell her as he was ashamed of having failed so badly. He is a Clone trapped, and made as an Anti-Thetan of her to control her Anti-MEST body.
2. he didn't do it well 5,0

1. his purpose: he was created to be, but there is something more... 5,1 to find out something and experience and come back and tell her. And he was trapped into that where the wavelenghts started. And he trusted this person, so he was not suspicious about this, as he was supposed to experience and was too fool and went into this trap and then continiously making overts against her, but because he wanted to do something near her, this was very useful, to use him against her ... it's good that all is known now as now he can be a large guy again.

(OT: he's no longer an Anti-Thetan LFBD 4,8 and he's much bigger now and there's a huge relief and not the glassball anymore FBD 4,7 And the somatics are gone

2. it is handled 4,85

1. being invalidated
2. he doesn't understand it. Because he looked at what he never looked! Is not ok, or what? 5,0

1. he has the EP!
2. what else should be handled?

1. he is 5,05 and is free and nothing else except that
2. nothing more to handle

1. he is he
2. nothing to handle about that

1. no other
2. nothing to handle

1. nothing else 5,15
2. nothing to handle

1. no ... he is! 5,12. Nothing

1. no
2. no

(Tone 40 to any interference: Out of session!)

1. he is he
2. nothing

1. he is created, but he is he 4,95
2. nothing
3. 1. FBD 4,8 no answer
4. FBD 4,75

1. he's there and everything is ok
2. nothing more

1. he won't. Feels totally invalidated as he feels good!
2. nothing

1. no
2. no need to handle 4,8

1. he's protesting
2. what can he do! Nobody believes him!

1. no
2. no

1. no other
2. no

1. he is!
2. nothing

1. he is
2. nothing 4,8

1. what do we want from him now? He feels fine and waits to finish. He doesn't understand why we continue
2. he should leave. That would handle the situation! no
3. no

1. no
2. no

1. he is! That's all! 5,0
2. nothing

1. no other
2. nothing

1. no
2. no

1. no
2. no

1. no
2. no

1. no
2. if nothing is there, it's nothing to be handled!

1. being handled and now being invalidated 5,0
2. he can't

1. no
2. nothing

1. none
2. nothing

(OT: can't we make a break!? LFBD 4,85) (Break - 4,85 (2))

Continue PrPr 6 on Glass-ball-guy

23.06.88

3,0 (2) - sticky needle

Anything happened between sessions? LFBD 3,65 1 really have the feeling that this guy is connected to ...(3 other Pre-OTs and Pre-OT herself). Just a very strong idea of that.

Body-wise I have the feeling like having got too much radiation. 4,8 At night, something happens, as if I continued auditing I'm not! But that's basically all. (sf) 3,95 Yes!

I have the feeling of red hopelessness! It will never end and it's really hopeless and nothing will be the same as before, and that is not good. And 4.0 it would be better to have a (sf) simple life. with friends, working and life could be so nice and at night going to the disco And the world is see nice - why should I fight it? And the feeling the she'd feel live very very good of she lived in her safe environment and not doing special things. And this is combined with the feeling of sadness and loosing! The feeling is of loss of all these nice things. This is really the feeling. But I (OT) think something totally different. And this feeling is somehow pressing me down and I'd like to really be powerful and making what we're doing enthusiastically BEING TOUGH, but this feeling makes-it somehow heavy end I have to use effort. That's it basically.

(Break - 4,2 (2))

(Restart - 4,2 (2) - FED 4,1 the needle is not sticky now, but looser)

Contact this guy - LFBD 4,0

Continue with PrPr 6

1. not to be
2. not

1. (sf) being nothing
2. not 3,0

1. there's no existing condition
2. not

1. there's nothing
2. FBD 3,85 then there's nothing to handle as there's nothing1. maybe he is as he's thinking
3. he thinks. but maybe he's just a thought, so maybe, he's just not in actual fact

1. being somebody else's thougt, so not being actually
2. he handles nothing. He got and gets handled 4,0

1. being nothing
2. he handles nothing

1. no existing condition
2. not1. nothing is 4,1
3. nothing is handled

1. nothing is nothing
2. if there's nothing then there is nothing to handle

1. if nothing is, then nothing exists and there are no conditions.
2. then there's nothing to handle

1. being nothing
2. not

1. he's nothing
2. not

1. no existing conditions. there's nothing
2. nothing to handle LFBD 3,95

1. no conditions at all
2. he handles nothing

1. (laughs) no conditions FED 3,8
2. not

1. he feels disturbed in his nothingness FED 3,7 because he's nothing
2. Not! For sure! FBD 3,7

1. the only one is that: nothing is!
2. he didn't FBD 3,6

1. FBD 3,5 To condition
2. not

1. no!
2. nothing he could tell about

1. not being 3,7
2. not

1. there's nothing but thought and thought is nothing so there's nothing
2. he's thinking but that's nothing

1. no condition
2. not

1. no condition
2. not 3,7

1. FBD 3,6 still no existing condition
2. not 3,61. nothing2. with nothing FED 3,5

1. no condition
2. not

1. there's not, there wasn't and there won't be existing conditions. Just nothing!
2. he didn't. doesn't and won't

1. no condition
2. no condition to handle 3,45

1. no condition
2. not 3,4

1. only nothingness
2. not needed to be handled

1. nothing
2. not

1. there are none 3,5
2. not

1. (sf) he can't be anything else but nothing because he's nothing
2. what should be handled if there's nothing1. no condition FBD 3,45

not

1. he's nothing
2. if there's nothing, then there is nothing that could be handled, because there is nothing that could be handled BD 3,3

1. no condition
2. not

1. there's no condition
2. how should he handle nothing

1. nothing is nothing
2. not 3,5

1. nothing LFBD 3,35
2. not1. Nothing
   didn't

1. (laughs) there are no existing conditions 3,14
2. doesn't

1. no conditions! nothing can't be a condition, it would be something
2. just silly, because you can't handle nothing

1. no existing conditions
2. not 3,3

1. F no conditions
2. nothing

1. no condition
2. nothing

1. there's just nothing
2. he's nothing so how could he handle nothing? 3,5

1. no existing conditions FBD 3,4
2. not1. no existing conditions
3. how could he handle something not existing 3,5

1. there are no existing conditions!
2. he can't handle no existing conditions

1. nothing
2. not

1. there are no existing conditions
2. how could he handle something which is not existing! If there's nothing, nothing can be handled, because there isn't even nothing that could handle it!

1. nothing
2. not 3,5

1. no
2. not

1. he can't tell something which is not existing! There's nothing! FBD 3,4
2. not

1. no conditions
2. not handled

1. nothing 3,5
2. not

1. no conditions FBD 3,4
2. not

1. there are no existing conditions. Nothing can't be on a condition
2. there's nothing, so it can't be handled 3,65

1. no existing conditions FBD 3,55
2. not

1. nothing
2. not

1. no conditions
2. not

1. he's nothing in no condition
2. he didn't. What should he handle!

1. no condition
2. not

1. no condition
2. not! Why should he handle nothing! 3,6

1. nothing
2. not FBD 3,5

1. no condition
2. not

1. now he wants to make it very clearly: LFBD 3,4 There's nothing, and there's nothing nothing can be handled. Have you pot it now!?
2. we didn't get it, as because of there's nothing, nothing can be handled FRD 3,3

1. nothing
2. didn't Chat for?

1. no condition 3,4
2. not

1. no conditions
2. not 3,5

1. no condition
2. not

1. no condition
2. not

1. Nothing
2. not

1. there's nothing
2. nothing to handle

(OT: It's like a record.)

(Break - 36 (Q)

(Restart - 3,9 (2) - sticky needle)

(Continue with PrPr 6)

1. being nothing
2. not

1. not being
2. not handled

1. not being
2. not handled

Next 34 commands he answers with "no condition" - "not handled" - answers - TA moving up to 4,1

1. he's wondering what is aware that there's nothing, as if there was only nothing, there couldn't be awareness! So it's not possible, awareness & nothing.
2. he has to think about that

1. something is aware
2. he tries to find out what it is

1. he is aware
2. he doesn't know yet how he'll handle that

1. he thought he was nothing, but he has found out he's something, as he is aware and he can observe
2. he's wondering how he came to think he's nothing, as he is aware 4,2

1. he would say he is. Not what he is, but at least he is.
2. he just is at the moment 4,15

1. he is
2. didn't

1. kind of pictures he can see
2. looking at that pictures (sf), FBD 4,1

1. he's astonished. He seems to look at pictures that are showing him, so he must have been before and for sure, he's not nothing
2. tries to find out what happened in looking at the pictures

1. FBD 4,0 he can't see anything clearly now. It's too much!
2. tries to remember

1. he's unconscious
2. tries to wake up

1. he seems to be pressed down by somebody
2. he's fighting against that, but he can't fight it

1. he's been told something 4,2
2. he's overwhelmed by that

1. he's nothing, but he's something and there's something that mixes that up. He dosen't get it clearly. Somehow it's upside-down
2. tries to fight that 4,35

1. he's nothing
2. he can't handle it

1. he's nothing and is not aware. Because he's nothing and nothing can't be aware.
2. he doesn't handle it. He's just the thought of somebody1. being the thought of somebody
   he's just the thought of somebody

1. he's the idea of somebody, like a potential something 4,4
2. he just waited or was aware he was a though or an idea. He couldn't do anything else

1. being the idea of somebody and without that somebody not being at all 4,3
2. not handled

1. he's potentially nothing
2. he did nothing

1. total unconsciousness
2. not handled

1. unconsciousness
2. he did nothing

1. he's just a mock-up of somebody. Actually there's nothing! It's just a mock-up.
2. not

1. total unconsciousness
2. not

1. total unconnciousness
2. not handled

1. unconsciousness
2. not! He was unconscious!

1. FBD 4,2 waking up again.
2. not

1. wondering who he is and what happened
2. being shocked 4,15

1. being shocked
2. not

1. to be but not liking it 4,3
2. tries net to he

1. postulated himself to he nothing
2. it doesn't work 4,4

1. still something
2. tries to make-that something into nothing

1. he can't persist being nothing, that he is always aware of wanting to be nothing, so he's always something
2. so he tries to not-is it

1. he doesn't want to he
2. he tries not to be, but it doesn't work

1. the answer is: feeling of being there 4,4
2. he tries not to he there

1. he is there
2. that's what he's trying to handle it, to be there but he can't handle it

1. he's wondering who she is 4,5
2. he's a bit astonished as he is more aware than before and obviously there is another somethingness and there can't be nothing. Something is always. There's a lie with this nothing! He had the idea that he is nothing, because if there would be something, it could be terrible, so it's better there's nothing. Put it's funny! Not true! It's suppressed life! Something wrong about that! 4,6

1. he is and it is not so terrible as he thought it would be. It doesn't hurt at all
2. he just started handling it, because he's making experience right now and he is very astonished that it's very different from what he thought it would be

1. he is and feels pretty fine and he's astonished of feeling pretty fine. It's ok, like if he would expand 4,6
2. 4,55 he doesn't know what happened. But now he's much better. He was dead and now come to life and he's wondering why he was "dead".

1. yes! He is!
2. FBD 4935 he just starts to handle it! FED 4,3

1. he's wondering who he is and what happened
2. he's thinking about that, trying to remember what happened

1. he was postulated to be dead (sf)
2. FBD 4925 he was dead!

1. being deed
2. he was so 4,35

1. he doesn't want to be dead, but he didn't defend himself against being dead FBD 4,2

Something happened before that and he failed and felt totally ashamed. No! He didn't fail he was told he failed! He was trapped! FED 4,15 He was told that he had failed as a being and that he couldn't live on with that shame and he thought that was true and that he was not a good Thetan as he failed and he agreed it was better not to be than living on with that shame! And then he wasn't. While he was nothing, there is still something and he knows he is trapped as actually he didn't fail! That's not true!

2. after he noticed this is a trap and now he is dead and can't come to life again, but somehow he noticed that was a lie and not true. but it was too late 4,5

1. he agreed to be dead and nothing
2. he didn't handle it 4,6

1. FBD 4,5 there was a time, when he was a free being, and somebody talked to him that a real Thetan is nothing so he was something so held not be a real Thetan. So he failed in being a real Thetan. And the other guy told him that he will help him to be nothing again That he should postulate himself nothing and that he did, but that is an upside-down! This is a MU between nothing and nothingness. 4,3 This is a trap and he was something: a Theta playing a game, but he misunderstood that and he's very angry now that he went into this trap FBD 4,2
2. discovered new that he is not nothing, but he's something! He doesn't fail by being something, but he fails by being nothing!

1. he is and he's something and it's good to know 4,15
2. he'll handle it in the future probably

1. (OT sneezing 4,1) somatics FBD 4,0
2. somatics

1. he's not and somatics
2. nothing to handle 4,5

1. we better leave him alone. He wants to be nothing and quiet. OT: he's giving funny somatics
2. somatics

1. wants to be left alone
2. not handled

1. somatics 4,5
2. somatics

1. he doesn't care what we ar doing and he won't answer
2. he will not 4,55

1. being something to do with her
2. he thinks he is somehow helping her, but it's funny because he has to be against her

1. he's her Anti-MEST body
2. he's doing something with the Anti-MEST body 4,5

1. being insane and so having no resposibility and so he can do whatever he wants to
2. somatics

1. OT: I get no answers! He's just making funny things. By the way, he changed his position: first he was left, and then to the right and now at the same location as my body! I don't like it so much, to be honest
2.  

1. no answer. Just somatics
2. somatics 4,6

1. giving her all kinds of funny somatics 4,55
2. the same

1. he's kind of laughing and giving her somatics
2. somatics

1. somatics 4,6
2. FBD 4,5 somatics FBD 4,4

1. somatics
2. som

1. FBD 4,3
2. som

OT: by the way, this is like a total change of character, like if it would be somebody totally different. If the LFBD 4,0 postulate is around. you can't really reach the guy inside. if the creator is connected with the postulate, he can give any answers and change FBD 3,85 the way he wants and I said 2 or 3 times that it feels like a mock-up, willingly changed or influenced to give certain answers or to be whatever! 4,1 This is so funny, you see. I feel fooled! Because this guy we are auditing, he really felt a few times like at the EO, like when he was called a Clone and then getting this kind of "EP", he goes back to where he was at the beginning, or two times now that he changes totally! It could really be another being! Totally different. And there's something inside! 4,5 I have a real protest FBD 4,4 on this PrPr 6. From my feeling this can go endless with this guy getting those so-called "EPs" and then changing this could go endless. And sometimes I have the idea that somebody is sitting in the background and laughing about (sf) and that what I'm auditing (sometimes I have the feeling) that it's the mock-up of somebody and that it can't go to EP because it's nothing. He's saying there's nothing! Sure there's something as otherwise the TA would not go up and I'm getting answers. The question is: What is there!! 4,6 FED 4,5 One more 4,6 thing: FBI 4,5 Just one origination sometimes I though: if this is PrPr 6 to be handled to EP, I could do that Solo, as I can audit PrPr 6 FBD 4,3 That's all FBD 4,2

Auditor: Let's make a few more commands. 4,5

1. som
2. som

1. OT: He behaves like a little nasty child, jumping around and making faces and just giving somatics
2. som 4,65

1. som
2. som

1. som 4,7
2. som 4,75

1. som
2. som

1. som
2. som

1. he's her body fool or joker. He makes "funny" things with her body.
2. with what he's doing with her body

1. being in total control of her body

OT: (laughs) he's there again out of the body, being the glass-ball, gray, solid... And I'm fed up with this LFBD 4,3

2. no answer

1. being an automatism
2. it works automatically

1. he's the controller of her Anti-MEST body
2. he controls her Anti-MEST body

1. being elected by pod to control her Anti-MEST body
2. he's giving her some nice little somatics different then before

1. no answer. somatics
2. he does his job for what he was created

OT tired. R-Factor about ending hers the session 4,7 Anything you want to say before the end of the session? Yes. LFBD 4,5 It seems to be now that we are again right at the same point than when we first contacted him. He feels the same! He feels exactly the same as if nothing would have happened! 4,65

(EOS - 4,7 ( 2))

(Restart 24.06.88 - 4,05 (2) - nervous, hunting needle)

Anything has happened in-between the sessions? LFBD 3,85

OT: I don't know what it was, but last night something happened. And not only to me! .... (other Pre-OT) originated this morning F that something had happened during the night, not very good. This has to do with something happening since yesterday or maybe the day before. 4.0 It has nothing to do with the guy we are making the PrPr 6 on. (sf) I can hardly describe it, but body-wise there is something heavy going on. 4,04 What I will say now is totally invalidated, but I will tell even on the risk that I get invalidated LFBD 3,85: My idea is that the guy we are handling LFBD 3,75 is used as a kind of "distraction" FBD 3,65 to cover-up something which is happening behind that! And there is something (sf) happening. it's very very vague ... it's covered. Rut the phenomena I pet is that it hurts terrible... It hurts body-wise and as an emotion. It's like pain-waves which just occur, but I feel them very heavily! And it's not only me! ... (other Pre-OT) originated this morning that he's feeling them too. 3,8 1 can't put the finger on what' it is, but I tell you .... there's something very nasty going on behind what is obvious ... (sf) And I somehow get that and I know it's like this, but I have the idea that it will not be believed. That drives me crazy and weaks me and I feel I can't do anything about it, as we're handling this "distraction" guy, or whatever it is. And what is happening is not only happening to me but affecting more players! We are dealing with Anti-MEST, not MEST and things are different there! Well, that's basically all. 3,9.

R-Factor on relaying all this to the C/S. FBD 3,85 Right now we'll continue with PrPr 6

Contact this Black Ball (sf) 3,9

PrPr6 - 4,0

1. no answer, but somebody else is laughing at her
2. more laughing 4,0

1. OT: 4,1 I have the impression that the guy is dead and somebody also is telling her that the guy will give her no answers 4,2 because the guy in dead FRD 4,0
2. I don't get answers from the glassball, but from the other guy and the answers are: "He killed him!" The one answering killed the one who is dead. And there are more people going to die now 4,0

1. dead ones have no condition! 3,95 (the other guy is answering)
2. no answer 4,05 (OT: I kicked the other one out. as he is an interference)

1. no answer! Dead! 4,15
2. he's just dead. No answer, no sensations, no somatics, no feelings, no emotions

1. no answer, no response! Just the impression that he is dead
2. it's like he is not there anymore 4,53

1. the place were he was is empty
2. answer from the other guy: he returned to god

1. OT: It's like not there at all

TR 3 1.1 answer from the other guy: he's in the condition of being with god! Isn't it a nice condition? 4,5

2. the other is, who is giving the answers: "He returned to god!"

1. he says: if he went out of session, the glassball would as well go out of session
2. 4,6 he says: Well! He created this tiny little Thetan and he can do with him whatever he wants to.

1. he is the most powerful and he can do whatever he wants with Thetans, whether he created them or not
2. all agreed he does so 4,7

1. he is god and does what he wants to do
2. this is too boring for him, so we can continue auditing this tiny glassball-Thetan, which is there again now.

1. no answer. Just dead.
2. same 4,7

1. same
2. same

1. same
2. OT: this other guy here is not interfering the session any longer but he's running in Anti-MEST, pulling strings and doing things, very busy and it has to do something with what happened last night! (sf)

the same 4,7

1. same
2. same

1. same
2. OT: while (sf) we are handling this guy, there are things happening that I can perceive that we should be handled or handling! That's what I'm perceiving! FBD 4,6

1. no response. Dead! 4,7
2. same

1. no response, but the guy who is so busy, is laughing like mad 4,75
2. the same

1. no answer 4,8
2. no response

1. the other guy is asking her, that if she wants a few answers from the dead one, he can make the "dead one" give her a few answers! Rut just the answers he tells the "dead one'' to say to her and no more (very 1.1)
2. no response 4,81. the "dead one" is repeating the commands back! LFBD 4,6 and the other one is laughing FBD 4,52. repeating the command

1. repeating the command
2. repeating the command 4,65 like an echo, but without life: just stupidly repeating while still dead 4,7

1. Repeating
2. Repeating

1. no response
2. no response

1. no response 4,0
2. no response

(Break - 4,8 (2))

24.06.88:

After about 10 hours on PrPr 4 and then PrPr 6 the Black Ball went through different periods when he started to cognite something and then the TA went down a little bit! At those points, he always was thrown back into automatism or/and repeating the same thing as when before the cop he was having! Like working very hard for one hour or so in order he gets a cog, he bumps into that something and he loses the cog and start again. After all those hours, he went back to the exact original starting point when we contacted him. This happened by the end of last session yesterday. The Pre-OT has big protests about PrPr 6 and also asserts to perceive this guy is just a "distraction" to waste our time, while something nearby is going on body-wise behind this. Not only this, but today, at the beginning of the session, she was originating that something regarding this has happened last night, and in this session we find the guy with NO-RESPONSE BEING TOTALLY DEATH, and there's another guy in charge of him, laughing at the whole thing, saying he is god, and able to make the "dead one" give the answers he wants to. Another detail is that the only times the needle really makes LFBDs and changes of characteristics is when the Pre-OT talks about the perception of the other thing first to handle and the feeling of protest and heavy attack and this just being a "distraction". The only time session period the TA was in lower range was in a session yesterday, that we did with me on a huge win after a Solo-session, and the amount of outflow of Theta at that moment was the responsible to make some kind of a general key-out and the TA was lower the whole session, but the needle pattern, answers and TA motion was the same! Automatism and varying 2 or 3 subdivisions, depending on the point. Another point is that the PrPr 6 went very well until the guy contacted there was this co-postulate of his and god around him. Until that point the cogs and improvement were good and TA going down!

From that point on, it has been a vicious repetitive cycle and going with increasing protests and bad indicators and feeling of "bogged". As I already communicated, I've already handled 2 or 3 of these guys, starting finding the postulate (Co-postulate) and running the usual procedure for a postulate-thetan, with special care on the B/CB Steps to handle first the Co-postulate as a mule, and then the guy with the Who question. And it worked very well. The differences here are two:

1. here, the guy is unresponsive
2. we didn't know when we started with PrPr 4 - PrPr 6, that there was this Co-Postulat around him!

But, now we know it and at the moment she starts talking about the feeling and protest and perception, the needle goes back very responsive!

My explanation is as follows:

PrPr 6 handles the conditions. But the guy is in "No-Condition" by his own postulate, held by Xenu forever as they agreed, so the moment he starts cogniting he crashes against his own postulate of Not Being - No Condition ... + Xenu's postulate on that, and that is senior and stronger to his current state totally implanted. That, plus, the "possible" special treatment-he has received last night to become totally NO RESPONSE!

1. Getting that postulate affecting the whole thing
2. Running it on PrPr 1

V/I R/W
PrPr 3

as usual, and then on the B/CB Steps, handling the co-postulate. Then just checking - PrPr 6, PrPr 4, PrPr 5 on the guy, and if any unflat, nun it to EP, and then rest of B/CB Steps to EP

3. Let the Pre-OT have a win.

- Auditor -

75 - 13 July 88

C/S from Sn C/S:

1. include the interference Postulate Thetan in the Process (Clear commands when he shows up) as obviously the guy being run can not cognite fully as he is not all there, but part is held by the postulate or he is a MOCO of the Postulate or partly MULED with it.
2. When EP occurs do a B/CB, then folder to C/S.

BR
Sr C/S Ron's - 25.06.88

Restart 26.06.88

( - 4,0 (2) - hunting needle)

Anything happened between the sessions? (sf), (sf) Yes, the usual yak, yak... F .... (other Pre-OT) phoned this morning and told me that (another Pre-OT) was screaming at him and invalidating him and telling him that he's not allowed to see me because I'm the wife of (another Pre-OT) and she already told him that. He told her the truth that he went yesterday morning to have breakfast with me and she said: "WHAT?!!!!!" Like this were the last thing on Earth! He told her that he's grown up and he can meet whoever he wants to. She said: "As long as you are living in my place you have to follow my rules!" He said: "OK!" Then he told here that she should never scream at him like this. NEVER!!! As he was totally pissed off about things she puts her nose in that were not her business. Then he left home and phoned me from a public phone.

That's the usual yak-yak

Anything? Yes, I'm pissed about that. Who the hell they think they are?!

ARCX? (sf) I guess so.

Whose it is? (sf)

I got it's mine. But I'm not sure

Whose?

(sf) It's mine!

L.D.? x

OK! We take it as a usual ARCX.

What:

I'm obviously not allowed to do anything with (other Pre-OT) as if I do something with him something happens that beat back 10 times and basically I have the feeling that it will never resolve! I have the feeling that I have to fight and I don't want to fight against others. Ax Rx Cx Ux, Kx Rx Cx Px, Theta x, Static x?

Any other Break?

I have no idea! Ideal Scene x?

Let's check again who's this ARCX: Yours? x Anothers? x 4,35

Pre-OT: What I think, there is an ARCX, but I don't think it LFBD 4.2 will resolve, as it is continously and directly connected with what we're handling! I don't think this is going to solve! Sure there's an ARCX and it could be another "distraction" and that's why I was not so willing to talk about the usual yak-yak... F/N GIs.

Auditor gives R-Factor from Senior C/S about research. Pre-OT agrees and understands.

PrPr 6 Group action.

Pre-OT clearing words and command to everybody involved; guy, interference guy, Postulat-Thetan, etc. 4.25

1. LFBD 4,15 I'm God. - I'm dead. - I'm you. (Pre-OT: 2 guys being 2 postulates around this guy FBD 4,1) I'm not. FBD 4,0
2. Not. FBD 3,9 - I am. - That's too silly. - Well, I'm just all

1. We are together. - I'm dead. - I am not and all. - silly, silly, silly! 4,1
2. I'm the biggest guy and doing whatever I want. - not. - trying to come together but it's not possible!

1. being created. - being just a foll - being misused - being the greatest guy 4,25
2. not handled - fighting without winning - winning without fighting - always winning - always loosing 4,35

1. being imprisoned and realizing that - being the prisoner without wanting to he that - holding both of them - having fun in watching the fight that will no nowhere
2. wants to break free hut cannot - wants to let go but has to hold - wants to hold hut has to let go - enjoying to see that

1. 4,15 being so close together that not even notizing that they are not one 4,25 - being the postulate to hold all this together. realizing that there are differences - winning loosing - no movement, no motion - having arranged the composition of that
2. FBD 4,15 handled it perfectly Nearly, nearly unsolvable! - having to be positive (in the sense of charge) - having to be negative - having to be neutral (Positive: 1^st Postulat Negative: 2^nd postulate, Neutral: guy in the middle) 4,3 - being one

1. being the creator and controller of all and everything. Handling Thetans like puppets FBD 4,2 - being her - being someone else - not being oneself 4,3
2. pulling strings and arranging things behind the scene - controlling - not controlling being controlled 4,35

1. being her postulate - being the opposite of that - react on that . holding all together
2. playing with her - not playing with her - wanting to play with her - can't play with her

1. being a player - being a no-player - being an Anti-Player - being a piece which is played with
2. FBD 4,25 played -being played - not want to play - have to play

1. being the player of all players - being a part of a player - being an anti-part of a player - being a dumped part of a player
2. playing with all players 4,45 - not playing - have to reach for playing. have to withdraw from playing

1. Came Condition - Games Conditions - Games Conditions - 4,3 No-Game Conditions (in the negative sense: LFBD 4,1 death, total barriers, not-knowing
2. knows that he knows FBD 4,0 -has to reach for knowingness and can't reach it - has to withdraw from knowingness and can't withdraw - not know

1. 4,2 wanting to play together but playing against each other - standing in the middle as separation and connection -causing connection and separation arbitrarily 4,4
2. playing with Thetans to influence them - being influenced by Thetans to influence Thetan - being influenced by Thetans to influence Thetans to influence Thetans FBD 4,3 - funny to look at it like this. OT: It seems not as solid as before this whole arrangement!

1. being THE guy 4,35 - a guy who has a certain purpose 4,5 - a guy having the anti-purpose the other is held by that on one side and on the other side is connecting it and it is neutral
2. can't handle it - not allowed to handle it - wants to handle it but can't - handled it

1. uses 4,5 - being used - being used pro - being used contra
2. did it - did not - did wrong - did right 4,35

1. absolutely right - absolutely wrong - half right, half wrong - half wrong, half right
2. always doing the right things -always doing the wrong things - being half right - being half wrong

1. 4,25 total rightness - total wrongness - half rightness - half wrongness (smiles LFBD 4,0)

OT: this really seems to work from my feeling and like there are no barriers when we were auditing the glassball alone, he was changing: first it was the guy inside, the he changed into the "positive" Postulate and then the "Negative" Postulate came up and then again he was the guy inside. That was my impression at the very beginning of this, as they thought they were one. And now it's totally different: it's not one guy, it's really four guys.

2. being influenced - having to influence - having to influence (in PC) - having to anti influence, or influence against the influence - influencing 4,4

1. being the top - being the right - being the left - being the middle
2. pressing from the top - pressing from the right - pressing from the left - pressing down

1. being the creator - being created from her - being created from somebody else - being created
2. creating - creating - creating - creating

1. creating pain - creating implosion - creating explosion - creating charge from the different poles
2. giving the pain to all three - pressing outwards - pressing inwards - pressing downwards

1. being an automatism - being the creator of the automatism - being the activator - being the Anti- (opposite of) Activator
2. 4,3 activate - anti-activate - giving that to the anti-MEST body - pressing the trigger

1. doingness - beingness - havingness - nothing
2. to exert control - having nothing - being nothing - nothing

1. total effect - total cause - half cause - half effect
2. causing - effecting - causing the effect - effecting the cause

1. monitoring - monitoring to the left and down - monitoring to the right and down - being monitored to monitor others
2. giving orders - getting orders and changing it to the right, like: Drink! Hot Water! - And the other one gets the same order Drink!, changes it into Cold deter! the other one relays all this to the Anti-MEST body 4,35

Pre-OT: I'm hungry LFBD 4,0

(Break - 4,2 (2))

(Restart 4,45 (2) - hunting needle)

Continue with PrPr 6

1. being Anti-MEST m being Anti-Theta - being, Anti-Thetan - being Anti-Static
2. causing a game being part in the game - being anti-part in the game c being effect of the game

1. 4,5 being the god of Anti-MEST - being a servant of god - not being a servant but having to be a servant for god - just being a tool
2. being all and everywhere, influencing, directing, controlling everything - trying to break free - trying to suppress - being suppressed and suppress

1. being Xenu - being her - being anti-her - being not-her
2. laughing - crying - hating - is not 4,55

1. no condition -influenced condition - influenced condition - influencingness
2. influences all and everything - influencing truth -influencing emotions - influencing body 4,6

1. being himself - being her beingness - being against her beingness -being her body beingness
2. does like he does - keeping turned-around truth - fighting against that truth - transforming this and relaying it to the body

1. being the top of the top - keeping emotions - giving counter-emotions - giving all this to the body 4,75
2. giving pain - giving pain - trying not to give pain - giving pain 4,8

1. lost - win - body - soul
2. soul gives pain - body gets lost - lost is pain - pain is body 4,9

1. being killed - being killer - being failed salvager - being the cause of this
2. was the body and so is not - being the killer and so being wrong - failed and so being wrong too - having the right to make wrong 4,9

1. being dead - causing death - not able to salvage life - being the master of death -
2. died - dying - losing - winning

1. being dead, but being alive - being alive, but being dead - can't live because dead - dead and alive
2. not really dying - not really living - living dying - laughing

1. being cause over death and life - being life - being death - being both
2. taking life and giving death - suppressing death - suppressing life - suppressing birth

1. can't live - can't die - can't live, can't die - living
2. being randomity - being plus-randomity - being minus-randomity - being no-randomity 4,95

1. being source - being effect - being turned-around source - being turned-around source
2. causing - causing the opposite - causing the opposite of the opposite - being effect of all those

1. being god - being an angel - being a demon - nothing
2. controlling all - fighting evilness - fighting good - fighting nothing

1. being unlimited - being limited in a certain direction - being limited in the opposite certain direction - being limited
2. does whatever he wants - does whatever he doesn't want to - does whatever he has to - not influencing that 5,0

1. being smashed down - being turned around - being opposite of turned around - being the one who turns around --
2. surrender-- tries to turn around back - tries to reach the opposite - creating all that

1. 4,95 laughing 5,0 - smashed down - 3x
2. 5,0 Hopeless - it doesn't matter that this is hopeless - just being dead 5,05 - creating the contradictions

1. being something else 3x - being what he is
2. can't remember 3x - I know it!

1. being somehow pressed together 5,1 - being an implanter - the three being pressed together 2x
2. stuck together - being confused 3x

1. not knowing 3x - knowing!
2. forget it 5,05 - can't remember it - no need to remember - knowledge about that

1. intend 5,0 - intend something else - intention - relaying intention
2. intends to suppress - intends to get free - intends to not go free - intends to hurt

1. evil purpose - fighting that - fighting that fighting - being the tool of the evil purpose

1. 2, influencing Anti-MEST body - trying to suppress this influence - trying to enforce it - holding all together

1. SP - PTS/SP - SP/PTS - PTS
2. suppressing - just doing what is told to do - fighting against 2x 5,1

1. 1, being used to influence Anti-MEST body - trying to withdraw from the other - trying to enforce the order - giving the order

1. 5,1 giving the orders - trying to hold it back - trying to relay it - trying to do it

1. being connected to good and bad - being connected to bad and nothing - to good and nothing - to all
2. fighting good - fighting bad - fighting nothing - fighting all

1. being all - being nothing - being good - being bad 5,1
2. being all - can't be good - can't be bad - can't be nothing

Pre-OT: Now it starts to To in a circle again! FBD 5,0 Hard to describe. it's like running around and starting at the beginning and then, at the arrival point, getting at the beginning again. The impression is that now it starts to become repeateadly again. The answers are very similar and also already given, and at the beginning it went quite fine, but now it doesn't change FBD 4,9 it's like there is something pressing in, which is not touched and that should be touched. And I'm terrible tired. 5,0

I again have the feeling FBD 4,9 that there are things happening right now FBD 4,8 which don't have to do with this we're doing, but running beside but are evil! And the impression from the auditing I have now, is like searching for an entrance to get a thing handled, which is in actual fact UNDERNEATH or ABOVE that, which should be solved, or it would be the solution for this arrangement as it is. And my impression is that we are not going to find that "entrance-point" with this, I have the feeling LFBD 4,75 that I'm sitting here and doing things while other things are going on, that should be handled immediately! And this is very heavily going on regarding (other Pre-OT). He'd be in a very high danger and I can do nothing about it. That's the feeling and it hurts.

Back to PrPr 6

4,85

1. god is laughing - one is crying - one is hating - one is dead 4,9
2. not handled - can't handle - won't handle - already handled 5,0

1. fighting all - fighting good - fighting bad - not fighting
2. already winning - never winning - always loosing - not at all

1. having all under control - having good under control - not having bad under control - not controlling at all
2. not controlling 3x controlling 5,05

1. being death and life - being death - being life - not being
2. living - dying - not living - nothing

(R-Factor about Break - Anything you want to say? I continually have the feeling like if butterflies are flying in my stomach since this morning and it worsened now and my a(ttention?) is pulled to (other Pre-OT). He's not thinking of me, but something is happening to him and I think it has to do with that what is going on behind the scene. That's it basically.)

(Break - 4,95 (2))

Auditor's Comment: At the beginning this PrPr 6 on this group of 4 guys was providing a lot of data. Then, gradually the TA went more and more up, almost no TA action at all, but just going up and same answers repeatedly and apparently bogged and going nowhere. The only times this pattern has changed and TA went down and Pre-OT's indicators went better, was who Pre-OT originates that there is something behind this holding it all down and that should be handled first, or even would be the solution for the whole arrangement. On the rest her indicators increasingly worse and worse, as well as increasing terrible tiredness.

Suggested C/S: same as yesterday.

- Auditor -

(Restart - 3,1 (2) - hunting needle)

R-Factor: Continue with the handling. That somebody's whatever you were talking about in last session you should include it now in the session as well. 3,3

Pre-OT: Yes, but how?

Auditor: Can you contact it?

No.

Clarification of what's exactly what she should get into the session 3,5

Pre-OT: I have no idea what it is.

Auditor: We start the process anyway and clear the words and commands to all the guys involved and also trying to reach this other something.

3,55 In any case, anything adding up during the process should be embraced by it.

PrPr 6

3,6

1. 4 nothings
2. not handled

1. being changeable 4x
2. changing

1. being created
2. doing what they ware created for

1. no answers 3,7
2. not handled

1. four depending on one
2. no answer

1. being the big white light - being independent, but now, dependent by agreement (the other four)
2. keeping the agreements - forgot the agreements

1. I am to become I was! - trying to find the agreements
2. 3,85 making it a never-ending cycle. It ends where it started. Something breaking out of routines, automatically or something like that.

1. being all in one 3,95
2. connecting lines together 3,9

1. being connected - connect
2. trying to find out the connection - withholding the connection

1. 4,0 being a multi-postulate-guy - having given their-postulates away-and forgotten about it
2. you will not get IT - won't have it - won't reach it - won't resolve it - don't continue

1. keeping considerations - having lost considerations - turning around considerations and mixing them up - going effect on the mix-up - going effect on the mix-up
2.  

1. 4,2 being built by postulates (all five)
2. by postulates

1. postulating 4,15 - hiding postulates
2. (The postulate the guys are even the postulates, or keeping them!) he turns around the postulates against their creators, getting so Anti-Postulates

1. 4,25 having all postulates nd using them
2. he keeps these postulates and hiding them

1. to be,
2. to be what they are postulated

1. being effect of the postulates 4,3
2. FBD 4,2 FBD 4,15 they forgot the postulates and are doing now something without knowing really why. - being turned around and being the one who turns around, having been himself tuned around as well.

1. Pre-OT: It seems that now something else is interfering. Maybe I end up running PrPr 6 on the whole Anti-MEST stuff.

Auditor: What's interfering?

OT: Well, my attention is pulled to (other Pre-OT)

Anything else?

No, just that. Something is going on

Auditor: So. clear commands and words also to that and we include it into the PrPr 6:

Pre-OT: I don't know what I'm auditing now. It's funny! When we got to this fifth guy, the Multi-Postulate, is like the other five guys vanished! And now, that I contacted this other interference this Multi-Postulate is vanishing too! FBD 4,1 FBD 4,1 That what should be handled seems to be very close now. It's much more simple than handling a Multi-Postulate!

It's more in life! My problem now is how should I include this in the session? I can't locate it. This other, I can't locate it. It's very vague. Even if .... (other Pre-OT) is at home now and having trouble with his mother this is not the reason why my attention is pulled into this. There must be something else about that! 4,2

Auditor: So clear commands and words to whatever is that and we continue with the process.

1. danger (Pre-OT: new interference. No answers from the other five.)
2. connecting up this and that

1. having to fight to survive
2. fighting

1. using all tools and set-ups to fight
2. works pretty yell, but it's much to do not to lose control

1. Pre-OT: it vanished! And now my attention is pulled to all these people 4,3 connected: FBD 412 (6 other Pre-OTs) plus what is connecting them! So my attention is pulled there an it seems to be this!

(Break - 4,2 (2))

Auditor's Comment:

Before this session, we (Pre-OT and Auditor) were having a walk and I gave her the R-Factor about making the needed PR handling about (other Pre-OT's) mother and not seeing (another Pre-OT) during this Review, and the big necessity to set all the necessary conditions there to make possible this Review go on. After the talk and walk, the TA was much lower. Nothing she wanted to say from in-between sessions, and including "that something behind the scene": Result: we got a fifth guy in session and they went into all answering being a MULTI-POSTULATE. At that point. all these five guys somehow vanished away and Pre-OT got her attention on (other Pre-OT). Following the C/S, she cleared words and commands to that whoever it was around the other Pre-OT (she couldn't really recognize the guy): And going on with PrPr 6. we got the answers of "being in control of all this!"

Then he vanished and the attention of Pre-OT pot pulled to the whole of the players:

6 other Pre-OT's and all the network and things around all of them. At that point I ended that session to get a C/S. - My reasoning is from all the observed: We are very close to the top holder, totally hidden to make this look like a never-ending cycle! Funny enough, on the list of postulates, Counter-Postulates and so on from all these guys, there was one who was just "neutral" just "observing".... Well, now after pushing and pushing on the direction of handling this Black Ball, attention of Pre-OT goes to (other Pre-OT) and from that to the whole network! - Well, my estimation is that this MULTI-Postulate embracing the 5 guys will be (is) lined up with some other postulate around (Pre-OT mentioned above).

Suggested C/S:

As now the attention of the Pre-OT went up to the whole network, including Players, I think it would be not gold to run PrPr 6 on all of them. - I'd address the attention of the Pre-OT back to the Glass Ball and would ask for

1. LFBD VGIs laughs FEELING in relation to it.

2. Tracing back the FEELING

3. Finding the POSTULATE

4. Handling the Postulate as per PrPr 1, V/I R/W, PrPr 3 and B/CB Steps, being very careful if all these five guys of "Black Ball" disappear on that. (Possibly the Postulate is from ... (Pre-OT mentioned above) or somebody around him.) (We'd see) - If after that, the guys of the Black Ball are not fully handled yet, I'd check:

• PrPr 6 to EP
• PrPr 4 to EP
• PrPr 5 to EP
• B/CB Steps

If this still didn't handle, I'd check again for feeling, trace back, Postulate, and I'd handle this new one preventing the whole thing to blow. But, according to session evidences and the wax these Postulates Networks work, I'd say that once the main Postulate/Intention coming from whoever is (other Pre-OT or whatever), the rest will go off like hot butter (the 5 guys of the Glassball)

• Folder to Sn C/S
• After that, I'd go back in order, closing all cycles in sequence, and only handling any other interference showing up which stops the session, besides that sequence of closing the already opened cycles.

- Auditor

C/S from Sn C/S:

Before next session, clear with Pre-OT the Dynamics to 12 with what and who can be on them. Her ideal scene will be containing all these dynamics. The process is apparently unfixing attention on 1^st and 2^nd and broadening out to include the real why that the ideal scene was not obtained. Then pick up from where you left off on the PrPr 6. She should be able to confront handling any number of Dynamics and Players and MOCOs and Creations (+ & -) at this level - to get to her ideal scene - which does contain ideals for all Dynamics to No. 12.

- BR
Sn C/S Ron's -

Restart - 27.6.88

( - 396 (2)) (Hunting loose needle)

Anything from in-between the sessions

Yes! I have heavy headaches, like migrain, and I had not got them for months and I got it after the last session from yesterday and it's going worse.

I'm just astonished, because I didn't have it for months. (sf) The 2nd thing is regarding (other Pre-OT mentiond above). It's very funny, because he's describing things that we are handling as if he would know this stuff. For example, that there are connections between Thetans influencing Thetans and that there must be very old Postulates influencing Thetans.. and things like that, which is totally no! up to his level (OT III). I was astonished regarding that, because he originating that to me... And he says he can remember these things, because I'm there and because of my influence, he's coming to remember these thinks. He observed all these scenarios and 3P against me and that he noticed that at a certain point of this Review, he perceived that this wouldn't be just a Review any longer, but kind of something new ... He said, that whatever he is saying, looking like, doing ... he will totally be loyal to me in supporting me on whatever he can, because he pets large amounts of 3P, mentally against me and that's something very hard for him! About .... (other Pre-OT I'd like to mention: she originated that she cognited at the end of Excalibur that there must be a kind of Implanter Org-Board in which Xenu is just a part and yesterday evening she originated again to me, that there must be an org-board set up before these games. 3,7

Clearing up to 12 Dynamics: 3,45 all going fine and good indicators up to Ethics: examples and sentences (smiles) the rest is OK

Anything you want to say: I don't understand why we clear this.

R-Factor about clearing all this according to next handling. Good! Then every Dynamic has its own ideal scene? Sure! .. and then interlocked ok! I got it right!

Pre-OT: I have a question: the other guys vanished and technically I have the question of how letting the answers?

Auditor: I cleared her the group-auditing procedures and opened TRs. 4,0

Clearing words and commands.

1. War FBD 3,9 general
2. fighting - being neutral - being effect hating it - trying to withdraw - causing it - enforcing supporting fighting - loving it not wanting to have to do with it - being used in it killing - suppressing - using it - not understanding it - not wanting to have it - being involved in it - LFBD 3,7

1. FBD 3,6 Total enturbulation
2. not understanding it - using it - hating - enforcing - trying to stop it - Pre-OT orig.: the attention gets into my body, so I include my body and Anti-MEST body. So Pre-OT include also that. 3,8

1. observing it - effect - cause - deathness - confusion - sillyness - sickness - turn aroundness - implanterness - unwillingness - dullness
2. went insane regarding it couldn't - can't - doesn't want - playing - effect - not wanting - loving it - 4,0 still handling it

1. general being astonished: something is going on. but what is going on?
2. listening trying to not-is it - fight - run away - curious - wondering - not even noticing it not caring for it - thinking about how to-handle it - having hope - enjoying it - supporting it 4,2

1. being SP: some more SP and some more PTS, the same condition but in different gradients of SP/PTS
2. fighting the SP - gave up - not knowing what to do - suppressing - affecting other Thetan - trying to run away trying to understand - can't handle - just doesn't care - not-ising it - again fighting it using it - using the mechansim - not knowing how to handle it - being the total effect of it

1. Theta 4,3
2. not handling it - just being it - not having it - not wanting it - suppressing it - loving it - supporting it - being it, but small - having a little - not knowing how to handle it - hating it - wants to be it - attracting it - taking it away - turning it around - wanting it, but not getting it - getting it but not wanting it

Pre-OT: The guys that seemed to vanish yesterday are still there as they are answering now.

(Last two answer.) 4,45

1. hating her - being in a certain relationship to her
2. trying to support her - to kill, suppress, fear her.. - getting her attention - 4,4 trying to smash her - trying to he handled by her - trying to remember has - not wanting to have to do with her - admiration for her - worrying for her (her mother) - trying to remember her to resolve her as a problem - trying to kill her - not to meet her - to be with her - to know her - loving her (laughing) LFBD 4,25

1. being interconnected between each other 4,35
2. using it - thinking about it - not looking - not knowing - hating - trying to solve it - being it - wondering about it - not wondering

1. the wish to be separated and individually and not connected 4,35
2. several are going up the bridge - some don't know what to do - one is in the hand of god

1. having agreed on that 4,45
2. made a postulate or more

1. being Static 4,5
2. thinking what to do

1. coming to that solution to have a game
2. thinking about what is necessary to have a game

1. taking different beingnesses 4,6
2. postulating to assume different beingnesses than Static

1. deciding to be something certain
2. 4,55 taking different roles

1. forgetting
2. don't handle it

1. 4,6 being mixed up and it becomes complex
2. not handled. Playing

1. Pre-OT: Something happened it's different answers: losing something
2. trying to get it back but forgot so can't get it back

1. BE 4,7
2. Theta - Static - MEST - Thought idea - Pody - Anti-MEST space - being confused - not be - being god - being a child of God being a being - be but don't know what - being afraid 4,7 being a fighter being an opponent - being a postulate - being a sun - being a Black Hole being nothing being always right - being a pain - being Theta - being a part of a Thetan - being himself - being tired (laughs) - being an ocean - being true 4,65

R-Factor on ending up for today:

Pre-OT: Good! LFBD 4,5 This is very exhausting.

No! It's very interesting the answers and all what is connected with. 4,5 (smiles)

(EOS - 4,5 (2))

(Restart - 3,5 (2) - 28.6.88 - hunting needle)

Contact and TR 0 opened to all this and R-Factor we continue with PrPr 6:

Pre-OT: I have the impression that there is an "imagined tree upside-down" and where it ends (sf) in the trunk (the top) there's one guy or something holding the whole thing (sf).

Everything is connected into that: millions of beings connected into that: MEST, Anti-MEST, Players, Connections, Cases It really looks like a "giant complex Plug". Top? It could be a postulate or even god or Xenu... the (sf) top top guy we ran into in the Black Org-Board.

Back PrPr 6:

1. being fooled - not being fooled - there's no foolness - everything is ok - everything is like it should be - no conditon, as nevertheless it doesn't matter - wondering - hating 3,4 - being effect - emotion 3,5
2. gave up - used it - playing wondering - fighting - trying to destroy - not knowing what to do - not caring what to do using it all - being manipulated and can't fight it - helpless and sad - just a little piece: can't do anything - (general answer: very lowtoned)

1. some are popping out of the mass of Thetans and the rest are "mmmhhh" in the background
2. 3,5 F the ones popping out of the mass have more to do with her in PT. The rest not so much, emotionally

1. (sf) being in a game and having to play it and somehow all playing together but against one another 3,6
2. trying to play aligned (not against) but can't or these attempts are turned around and this happens for the most of them, unknowingly, reactively, thinking this has to be like this 3,75

1. the ones really totally being in the background. In the front is (2 other Pre-OTs) and I get the answers from them basically and after that some "mmmhh" from the background 3,65... (one of the both) is in a condition of really fighting me, using all kinds of tricks, black PR, in trying to destroy me.... (other of the both) is like a stone, very very heavy, nearly dead, very dark... ...(another Pre-OT) is in the condition of having a problem, which is not his own problem 3,5 The rest, except the Players is in a condition of dependency on what the Players think, feel as they push energies back and forth among the Players, but kind of being effect on what the Players are doing.
2. Black PR and 3P her regarding (other Pre-OT) 3,3 - not surviving - getting solutions - the rest is acting automatically

1. somehow each one depending on the other and fighting that and the more fighting, the worse
2. it can't be handled

1. F it's like being one. All being one! 3,3
2. not handled

1. being in a "never ending action cycle"
2. trying to end cycle, but on that trying, opening new cycles and so on and so forth 3,35

1. ... (one of the other Pre-OTs) is trying to find more out-points about me to be herself right and make me wrong and hating and fighting me very heavy, trying to take her space and get rid of her, and if she could, she would kill me - many are involved in a native way, at effect of what she is doing. So involved and enturbulated by that - others are just not ising it - going totally effect of it - being used - god likes that (Pre-OT mentioned above) is so nice effect of him. She can be easily controlled and he likes that. She does what he wants her to do.
2. searching out-points - can't be handled (the ones involved and wanting to) - don't know what to do - don't look at it - it's already handled (god). Everything is handled very well.

Don't you see that?

1. being very interlocked, very connected and reacting on one another and being 3,5 more or less effect and cause inside of this arrangement
2. some think they are cause, but they are effect - some know they are effect and can't handle it - some try to be cause - this has directly to do with the degree of PTS/SP they are!!

1. it's a big fight - being in a big fight 3,5
2. most are losing - one is winning: God! - somehow winning, but then having the impression of losing immediately again (one of the other Pro-OTs and a few else, who are PTS and aware of the roller-coaster) - not wanting to play that

1. 3,7 being more or less manipulated via control mechanisms. But the most of them are not aware of it.
2. Not handled. but basically wanting to break out of it

1. Pre-OT: 3,8 I have the impression like there would be a wave of protest going along the "Tree" against the fact of being controlled - god is in the condition of being a bit in doubt whether he can hold it
2. it's like if the Thetans involved in that, were trying to break out of something

1. 4,0 trying to fight it, whatever it is, but the most are not aware what they are fighting So they just want to pet out of the condition, but the motivation in doing that is very different: (other Pre-OT) for example is trying to make me guilty and is fighting me in the attempt of breaking out of that
2. they are trying to fight in the direction where they think it comes from, (so they are fighting each other - Pre-OTs comment) 3,7

1. 3,75 being gradually separated and not-knowing - some are do low, that they don't even know that they don't know
2. trying to know what is not known - not trying to know because of fear knowing it and not liking it - not knowing - knowing what the others don't know (God)

1. more or less being effect of that what they don't know
2. some try to know - some think they know, but they don't. so they don't even try to find out 3,8 - some know and can't apply it or don't know what to do with what they know (one of the other Pre-OTs)

1. being dependent on what is not known
2. would like to know, but don't know how to reach it

Pre-OTs comment: This is really on the various levels from very low to very high. For example at very high, they don't know what is their basic postulate and they would have to find it.

At very low for example, it would be: "well, I don't know", but it's impossible to know. Like the last answer for 2. we have got: "Would like to know, but don't know how to reach it".

It would fit with all levels. from highest to the lowest.

1. being in a kind of mystery regarding the game
2. not handled

1. being used and using others in the game (PTS-SPness)
2. being used and using others 3,85

1. being in different states of Theta
2. handled as good as possible, depending on the state they are in

1. 3,9 not knowing regarding Cod, whether there is one or not, and so there's always a mystery regarding that and not really knowing whether they were created or not
2. trying to find out about that - not knowing exactly about that: is there really a god in the very meaning, or what? (basically) - in doubt - believing 4,0

1. fighting one another regarding god 4,1
2. trying to prove there is god and that there is not god and this in different degrees of believing

1. thinking about god
2. can't be handled, because god can't be measured. Can't be reached.

1. being like a giant cluster
2. 4,25 this must have been able to happen because of common agreement. They didn't necessarily make it together, but LFBD 3,9 it must have something in common: the agreement LFBD 3,65 It's a cluster in a higher harmonic! They don't have a mutual incident. But they have a common agreement or Postulate, which can be connected, turned around, as the Thetans can be interlocked via the Postulate/agreement, 3,7 FBD 3,6 They have created god themselves and they forgot it. They just started and gave themselves in the hands of god. 3,7 Something like that. It has to do with this Postulate and either god turned it around and mis-used it They give up the responsibility for themselves to God! LFED 3,5 Not for their creations. but about themselves! We just play and you (God) care for us - Something like God is the cause for everything. - trying to remember what's exactly what it is: very simple and very common 3,7 3,75 LFBD 3,6 3,7 Pre-OT thinking about it LFBD 3,55 I'm very close, but I don't get it. It's like: Everything is God, so we don't have to care as everything is God - everything is coming from God and will go to God and everything in between is just an imagination from God, so nobody has to care! 3,8

1. being dependent from God
2. agreed to depend on God

1. being fooled by God
2. too late to handle it 3,9

1. running in their own trap
2. this could happen because of having made a Postulate that can be turned around easily

1. Now being the fools of God
2. trying to find the basic agreement to unravel it 4,0

1. FBD 3,9 once they were free
2. want to play a game

1. now in the game
2. tried to end the game, but in a positive way

1. making postulates
2. postulates regarding beingness 4,0

1. being the Player and God is the Games Master who is controlling the game
2. 4,15 they just played and got kept the rules and then he mis-used it 4,2

1. being fooled by God
2. trying to find out how he fooled them LFBD 3,9 He turned around the basic postulates and used them against Thetans. It's like all Thetans said "I am" and he made an addition to the postulates, like "A CHILD OF GOD", so you are a child of God, Oh! Something like "I AM ME", and he messed up all these postulates so everybody is "ME" and nobody really knows who he is, so everybody is interlocked. It's not exactly that, but in that direction.

(Break - 3,8 (2))

(Restart - 3,8 (2) - hunting needle)

Continue FBD 3,75

1. being dependent on one another

2. having to play together

1. there's something combining all together which is coming up now, something separatedly which I will include now. (Pre-OT's comment)

2. 3,75 creating the basis of this

1. having created something, which is out of control now

2. trying to make the best out of it 3,7

1. being limited or defined

2. 3,6 playing the role per definition, as chosen and given FBD 3,5

1. they all agreed upon everything, but it got turned around and used against them and it's very tricky made, as it includes the basic purpose and this is just slightly changed, so it creates an effect which is not wanted

2. they got fooled with their own postulates 3,35 - something was proved. like: leading them to wrong conclusions and this went down-spiral getting more and more complex

1. 3,35 having decided it and because the decision got turned around they have to hold onto that er otherwise, they would be wrong FBD 3,25 That's a vicious cycle. Even if they looked at having been fooled, they'd be wrong! So either way, they are wrong in attempting to be right. Pre-OT: Very tricky! 3,25

2. always trying to be right

1. 3,1 losing his stable data, because in trying to be right, they could be wrong and to be wrong means not to survive, so they have to be right 3,3 LFBD 3,1 They are right in making others wrong. And here we have the PTS/SP mechanism again.

Pre-OT: I thought, one could come out of this, if he hay the attitude that everybody is, or can be right, which would mean basically to grant beingness in a very high level! Then I saw the mechanism of .... (other Pre-OT) making others wrong in the attempt to be right, to survive.... (another Pre-OT) too In an attempt to be right! To survive! (laughs) My God! Maybe it was a kind of cog! 2,95

But don't ask me whose! FED 2,8 This is very very basic this mechanism! It fits totally to the PTS/SP mechanism! The SP is afraid, so he has to make the others wrong to be right! All this time, otherwise he would be wrong!

F/N VGIs

EP for this PrPr 6