That cycle on Xenu was finished on the 2nd/VII/08.
That same day, on next session, we went back to Player (E) in relation to the Postulate on Player (A): "I WANT IT BUT I CAN'T REACH IT!!"
On the PrPr 1, this guy cognited he had made it very complicated, giving this Postulate, and that prior to the postulate, there was a confusion, an M-U on Static, because of the Postulate he made about Static, and from that, the confusion derived.
That basic postulate causing all this was: "I DON'T KNOW WHAT STATIC IS!". But that is from Xenu! His own one: "I CAN REACH IT, BUT I DON'T KNOW THAT I CAN REACH IT".
It went to EP, as well as the rest of the normal processes on it.
On the 3rd/VII/88, we started with next opened cycle, with a PrPr 1 on the postulate: "I AM TOO SILLY TO UNDERSTAND THAT!!". The OT traced it back as coming from Xenu.
After a very few commands, the OT originated a total Emptiness in his space kind of a feeling, interfering the session.
The wording of this feeling was: "SITTING INSIDE OF NOTHING AND LOOKING QUITE SILLY".
The tracing back: it was coming directly from the vacuum guy around the body.
Postulate: "ANDY IS DEAD!"
We started PrPr 1 on it, and it was confirmed that the postulate was from Player (E).
Getting date about a Team-work where the OT and Player (A) and (N) also involved, to handle this Player (E), and this Player having got infiltrated in this group with false pretended help and data, with two purposes: first, not to be discovered and handled, as nobody would suspect from somebody inside the group, and second, to control and damage as much as possible, as many GP members as possible. and making guilty another player involved, (H), to stop him as he is powerful and important, so he never gets to realize who he is and operate accordingly. causing many troubles and somatics to this person. plus all kinds of 3-P in the middle. He even cored to be personally blown out inside a GP spaceship with other members. so nobody would suspect of her.
Next day. 4/VII/88, we continued with the sane PrPr 1 on "ANDY IS DEAD" Postulate.
Data about a ball or sphere the Player (E) built and keeps now to imprison and limit. He implanted something via which, he can control and influence. This is around the OT, but it was also done around other persons too. by him. Around (H) and (A) too.
These spheres are to withhold them. It's like the energy they use. turns automatically turned back against themselves. So, the more energy they use, the more it goes against them.
Only at a low level this is not noticed, but as soon as activity starts, this starts to press and hold down!!
So he limits the activities and abilities of the others via this, and then, uses this to inval the person.
For example: the OT tries to do some MEST work and because of this mechanism, he feels paralyzed. Then, Player (E) comes and tells the OT that he is never doing anything and so on, while he is actually causing it!
He is making the others look unable, and he is making them wrong for being unable, while he is actually causing that to them.
He is proving that way that he can totally trap Big Thetans, and that it is not a problem that he is a small Thetan, as he can suppress Big Thetans!!
He doesn't allow the others to be right, as his survival would be in danger.
He got unconscious and hurt and was told that the cause for all this, had been his "friends". The same ones he is fighting now!!
After this something black and painful happened to him and he went insane, he was told all this and what he could do to survive.
He is in revenge for that and making the others experience to lose as he himself did. The only one who helped him was Xenu.
It was black, terrible, like a vacuum, and him as a Thetan would explode and very black and solid, and at the same time, vacuumed, and high randomity and low randomity and no randomity, and torn into pieces, and he can't come out of that, as he is not, and feels absolutely confused and can't bear it, but it goes on....
Held like to go unconscious, but it goes on! This doesn't stop, but it goes worse!
It suddenly stops and there is nothing, and there is a light and tells her: Do you know who did it to you?
And the voice told him who did that to him: his friends! And she shouldn't trust anybody from now on! THE BIGGER THE THETAN IS, THE LESS HE SHOULD TRUST HIM!!! And he could use special tools for this not happening to him again.
So, now he is allowed to do anything, any overt, as if this were done to him again.... HE'D DIE!!!
Guy realizing it was not his friends who did it ....
When he went into that funny "Thetan killing machine"... But before that, somebody told him he could experience something inside that machine. He went into that machine and forgot everything. Everything became of no value! He was totally in PT, as he couldn't think of anything else, but how to get out of there. It was so hard that he wished he were rot at all... and then, somebody told him to consider himself nothing, and if he is nothing, nothing con be perceived and experienced. Then, he was told he came out of nothing, and that his friends got him into nothing, and that now, hold have to fight for his survival, or held be nothing again!!
And he was totally like dull and with a lot of unconsciousness.
He was told that inside that machine, held experience the absolute NOTHINGNESS, as when he was at his highest point of awareness and ability.
And after that, when it suddenly stopped, it was like an absolute nothing, but at the other end of this game, and from there on, he fought for controlling the others, and he prefers to do that via the body, as it can he done the best!
He wanted to remind the Native State, and entered into that machine, and got the idea that a Thetan can die. and since then, is fighting for his Survival.
Needing Theta from others to survive, and also can control the others via these, connection lines, via which he con control other Thetans!!
Dependency relation between this guy and Player (A): Player (A) should love this Player (E) and be thankful to him, while this Player (E) is getting Theta from Player (A), as Player (A) was told held be nothing without Player (E), and he shouldn't leave Player (E), and Player (A) feels guilty if something happens to (E). (E) gave (A) the feeling that he was dead, and that he was alive because of (E), so (A) has got the feeling of dying without (E). (E) was told to do so!!
This kind of thing is and has been functioning for a very very long time.
When (A) is out of (E), he seems to be closer to death, and the opposite: when he does non-survival things, he seems to be closer to life!
The closer (A) is to (E), the closer he is to death, but it seems to be the opposite.
He made the postulate: "I'LL MAKE IT WITH XENU".
He can postulate very well on flows basis to control the others, and he knows the postulates from the others. Hi; flows are very effective. He knows the overts from other Thetans, so he restimulates their overts and gets them. So, he tries others to make as many overts as possible against him. His Postulate is:
"I AM STRONGER THAN YOU, SO YOU CAN'T MAKE ANYTHING REGARDING ME!!"
This is a very active Postulate in PT. It seems that he is very good and strong, but it is this postulate which makes this.
At the moment people start seeing and he is working very hard in order not to be discovered. He'll go so far as to die, so everybody else feels wrong, so held have won again regarding the others!
He controls the others via death, making them think and worry about death.
He works on "FEAR".
He has an agreed-upon M-U on Static: Static just can be immortal with Xenu, because Xenu brings out Death, and without death. there wouldn't be comparison to Life. Without Death, there couldn't be Immortality!!
So Thetans can be trapped very well, as if they ware killed once, they could be killed twice, so they have a constant problem, fighting against Death, for Survival, and if they knew this, they couldn't be suppressed. Death in itself is a lie. The problem of Life is not a problem as there is only life, so this is a genius trap: To have the game "Death versus Life".
He agreed on that too to be able to play the game. but knows the background of it and is in a control position in the game.
He agreed to experience he was dead too, as he had to know how it feels, so he could know how to control the other Thetans the best!!
He was trapped himself, and he wanted to be right.
The purpose of this is to destroy the family, the erg, Scientology ...
Making the Player (N) act as an SP.
He is right if the others are so fool to let him make them wrong.
Co-operating and working with Xenu on this "Experience Death Project" and running of it in PT and restimulation of it in the game.
+++ At this point the OT went totally in desperation and discourage and not feeling able to continue and with some interference feeling, CRYING AND LAUGHING INTERMITTENTLY OR EVEN AT THE SAME TIME .... like a psychotic break.
The interference feeling was worded to laughs, VGIs, LFBD: "MOKSHA'S NEMESIS".
Tracing it back, we got to the mother of the OT, with the postulate: "GOD LOVES YOU".
VVGIs and a lot of Cogs and wins.
EOS for the day.
On the next session, on 5th/VII/88, we started with PrPr 1 on the Postulate "GOD LOVES YOU" from the OT's mother TLT on himself.
This person was putting the OT in the hands of God, by this postulate. She herself retired from life some years ago to live like a nun, totally dedicated to God. She can't be together with men. It doesn't work. But she doesn't want to be alone, so escaped from that problem into the hands of God. As a nun she is not allowed to have sex, and this is a very good excuse, because sex is from the devil!
Her big withhold is where she actually is, as she is not where her body is. Located around the uterus from the OT's body. Using sex to suppress.
There is a connection via an agreement done from mother, between God and the OT that the OT can't cut as it is coming from mother.
Mother cares that the OT dies so he can go to God. Mother influences via prayers (flows) the OT and always phones the OT when is doing badly, to prove that Scientology doesn't help. And because of the telepathic link, mother is always showing the OT his weak points.
Mother got also the incident of being dead aid destroyed, and being brought to life by God again, and without God, She'd be nothing!
And the OT is dead because is not with God, as only God gives Life and Love.
She gave the OT the idea of going smaller and attackable, as soon as having sex.
Always giving the idea to the OT of not reaching his goal. Anything that the OT was doing not fitting with God's rules, it was not coming from the OT. It was somebody else, according to mother!
Mother makes love with God via the OT's body, getting that way sexual pleasure, and giving at the same time the feeling to the OT, that sex is not OK. As God loves the OT, and not only as a Thetan, but also body-wise, and the mother can't feel love & sex, she uses the body of the OT to feel it, staying at the OT's body, occupying the sexual organs.
Wording of interference on this: "THE RABBIT IS DEAD!!".
Tracing it back: from Mick, one of the OT's brothers from his Theta family.
Postulate: "GET ME, HAVE ME, BE ME".
We started PrPr 1 on it, being very funny that the OT had done a sculpture when younger, of himself with a dead rabbit in his arms, and his mother called him rabbit . .....
Anyway, during the PrPr 1, this Mick was pretending to be the OT and being close to the OT and stealing the OT's Identity, resulted to be the Player (M).
It came out as well there was another postulate from (N) to (A): "GET YOU, HAVE YOU, BE YOU"
So, if the OT wants to be with (A), he is also loving (N), and (N) is also loving (A)!
This maes a total connection of three!!
This is a kind of GPM, as it distracts from the goal, as if everybody is everybody ... this is a real mess-up!
There is a third Postulate: "I GET, I HAVE, I AM", possibly on (N) himself.
At that point, there was a new feeling of Interference. Wording of it: "MAKE YOUR SHIT ALONE!!".
Tracing it back: Player (E).
Postulate: "YOU NEVER GET, YOU NEVER HAVE, YOU NEVER ARE".
We started PrPr 1 on that, and it came up that these last 4 Postulates were actually done by this Player (E), and then, the other three are misowned by the Player (N), and he acts according to that. But there is one postulate missing, given by by this (E) to the OT in PT, like a condition: "NOT GET, NOT HAVE, NOT BE".
This player made all these postulates to mix it all up, as a kind of implant, getting all of them interlocked, and gave the control over to Xenu!
Like a big glass ball, and 4 people under it: (E), (P), (A) The overall Postulate for ell is: "GET, HAVE, BE!!"
That is the common postulate, and the aberrations and other postulates Pre alterations of it, and all this is like a GPM!!
At that point, new interference. Wording: "THEY ORDERED THE BEER AND I HAVE TO DRINK IT!!".
Tracing it back: it's like ... (OT's origination): "THEY PUT THE POTATOES INTO THE FIRE AND WHEN THEY ARE HOT, I HAVE TO GET THEM OUT FOR THEM"! Meaning he had to be doing all this job for all the other guys involved!
VGIs and smiles on Player (K) as the originator now of the feeling, which started with no interest with going on with this handling.
Postulate from Player (K): "I CAN'T HAVE IT BECAUSE I CAN'T GET IT BECAUSE I AM NOT!!".
Interference again from Xenu, with the Postulate:
"NOTHING IS IN A CONDITION"
We ended up the session at that point for the day.
At the point of the protests originated via the OT's body when tired of the whole thing, when looking for the wording about "They ordered the beer..". At that point there was another attempt of psychotic break with the OT even considering the possibility of having gone totally insane, with total sudden uncontrolled changes of emotions, totally to the limit and opposed ones to others.
Next session on Xenu is enclosed on next page.
(Start - 3,4 (2) - nervous hunting needle)
3,0 It is his purpose and his job and he's working for the Thetans, not against them. In lower levels it looks he goes against them. In saying he is responsible for this, they go even deeper. That's the final test: to realize he works for the Thetans, not against the Thetans! And this is a kind of an EP: to contact him and see that there is no good and there is no bad!! This is like the test: trying to handle Xenu as the bad guy and finding him like this, meeting him at Static-Point outside the game!!! F/N VGIs (laughs) 2,95
Pre-OT thanking him for all his co-operation
Xenu: It was a pleasure for me
So then, one can feel that and learn how to stand to be able to be lonely! Being responsible for everything and all for the most of the Thetans, until they come to the point to see!!
Ha's very good, very clever, in doing those things and that's why he's one of the last in the gradient of Xenus.
He, as the bed one, took full responsibility and the error of the others was not to take full responsibility! Otherwise, they'd have come out of the game. The things for which they are not responsible are the things from which they go effect. The less willing you are to be responsible, the mars effect you go and you are in the trap, as it's really agreed upon, so you are fully responsible. But the funny thing is that if you pet very responsible you feel badly But if you asumethings, full responsibility, you'd be fully free and happy and he took full responsibility for all the bad things, so he took his full responsibility for his role.
F/N VGIs
After the session on Xenu regarding "NOTHING IS IN A CONDITION", Xenu told the OT, (according to the OT's origination in session): That he is going to help the OT in becoming willing to handle all this, and until the OT is not willing to handle and have all these feelings, it won't be finished. This was quite a cog! And while the OT was with all that and thinking of taking full responsibility for that, he thought that what he had done, that they all were giving that to him! And the OT realized having made the Postulate: "TEACH ME!!".
So, all they were doing was to teach him. To give him a lesson.
We started PrPr 1 on that Postulate from the OT.
During this, the OT cognited that in order to do that postulate, held have needed to learn something he didn't know in what condition Static can go, and he didn't know what would happen in the game and he wanted to experience and getting out of it again!
When he was in the kitchen before the session, he had it totally clear, and OT thinking it went F/N there. There all went aligned with what Xenu said and so on. and it was like suddenly, having everything clear, and the relationship to Xenu and to all the other Players, and now, somehow gets invalidated ....
Then the OT was having the feeling of getting the whole win and handling invalidated. being the silly one again .... Wording of that feeling: "GETTING TAUGHT THAT THE TRUTH IS TRUTH".
Tracing it back: Xenu, with the Postulate: "I TEACH YOU!".
PrPr 1 on Xenu about this postulate started.
After some commands and going nowhere, the auditor asked the OT whether this postulate was really coming from Xenu. Then the OT started to say that everybody concerned in this cycle wanted to end it up now.... That the OT came out of it and went in again because of all the others.....
Wording of the Feeling: "NOW, GO ON, HANDLE IT, END THE CYCLE!!".
Tracing it, it was got it was coming from all the implied parties.
Postulate: "IT IS FINISHED!!!!". And it Is a PT Postulate!
We did PrPr 1, VI/I RP and PrPr 3 and B/CB Steps on this postulate to EPs.
At that point, everybody concerned felt the cycle was complete and waiting for the OK from the Senior C/S about the end of the cycle.
Next C/S from the Senior C/S was a VWD on the audited cycle, and a C/S for the CT on Solo, going back to his Ideal Scene handling, and a list of all the different postulates from this cycle, in case it were necessary any other handling.
Much Love
Javier